i have become complacent wit life.

im bored outta my flippin wicket basket.( that mean my mind fyi XD)
i been jus workin and drinkin and i rele need 2 stop. itz like i hunger 4 more than wat i recieve evrydai like i need sumthin grand 2 happen 2 me. i hate feelin like thiz....

i also have been kinda down az of late...i crave attention beyond jus a friend... i need affection and it seemz like a guy like me iznt gettin enuff. i met thiz gurl wen i waz out wit my guy Eternal( 1 of my muzyk buddiez) hur name iz nina and at 1st she waz like in 2 me, but quickly shifted 2 him wen we waz kickin it wit hur. now i dont care but it waz like rele gettin 2 me 2 see them all flirty and shyt in front of me and i kno it waznt on purpose or nothin, but jus 4 me 2 sit there and b like

hey....wat bout me???? O_O
i want sex and affection 2!!!!!

THEN she(nina) waz like she waz gonna hook me up wit hur friend that iznt ugly, buty had no picz...(bad idea i kno 4 sure) she gettin 2 tell me that she iz like 4'8
O_o
im 6'3-6'4
WTF!!!!!
i dunno... i dont want 2 but i guess i could atleast talk 2 hur and b nice and make a nu friend even if im not on that (which im not, i jus want affection ya kno)
i dunno, im jus screwed i guess.....so screw it