i just want to kill myself right now i was going to do it last night but i was at kyle's house and nobody would let me leave. but really there are two things holding me back from not doing it. 1) my little brother, i adore my bro i love him so much i want to see him grow up, i want to spoil him, hear about his first day of school i would do anything for that kid. 2) i'm living on hope, hope that i can be happy again hope that all these depression will go away. well its time for school >.<