Is it sad I get pleasure out of people's misery and pain?

KAINXAIDOU IS MY FAV VAMPIRE KNIGHT PAIRING~

xx.
Nothing I say comes out right
I can't love without a fight
No-one ever knows my name
When I pray for sun, it rains
I'm so sick of wasting time
But nothings moving in my mind
Inspiration can't be found
I get up and fall but...

I'm alive!
I'm alive!
Between the good and bad's where you'll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I sleep when I die
I live, My life, I'm alive!
.xx

This is basically a diary. I have to write in it everyday, or it'll defeat the purpose. I mean, I just want to be able to express me feelings, and I guess this is the simplest way. Plus, you guys get to read about me and my day.

So, let's start with the information, I guess. I'll start with the basics and work my way up.

My name is really Savannah, though I would like to be called Savage.
I'm gonna break this up for you. I have 3 different 'people' that I am. Here's a little info about them all before you meet ME.

Shane: He's a player who talks like Beat (he talks all skater) and loves to have a good time. He's bisexual, but likes girls more. He has a girlfriend. (Destiny)
Savage: His real name is Demitri, and he's emo. He's also gay. But even though he's emo, he CAN and WILL smile. But little ones. But he smiles a lot.
Uke: I dunno his name, so I call him uke. He is my Clueless Uke side, and he doesn't have a sexuality. Though he seems gay. He likes cute things and loves wearing bows.

Okay. now about me.
Let's get something clear. I AM A POKEMON TARD. DEAL WITH IT.
I love anime, obviously. It's the best thing in the world to me. Diss it around me, and you'll SERIOUSLY be sorry. Especially if I know you. I WILL ignore you. You don't do that around me. Because I get pissed at the stupidest shit. Anyways, my favorite animes are Naruto/Naruto Shippuden, Axis Powers Hetalia, 07 Ghost, Junjou Romantica, Vampire Knight, Ouran High School Host Club, Death Note, KuroShitsuji, Soul Eater, Gravitation, Karin, Bleach, Code Geass, and I'm sure there's more.
My favorite colors are red, black, blue, and neon green.
I listen to almost ALL music, so I'm fine with just about anything. But my favorite kinds of music are Alternative, Rock, and Pop. The bands I'm currently addicted to at the moment are The Beatles, Breaking Benjamin, Blood On the Dance Floor, Skillet, and Three Days Grace.
My favorite non-anime shows are: Glee, Whose Line is it Anyway, Freakazoid, Third Rock From the Sun, Scrubs, Meerkat Manor, Fosters Home for Imaginary Friends, Dora the Explorer, SpongeBob, Teen Titans, Ed Edd n Eddy, Family Guy, and hell, I watch a lot of TV. There's a shit-ton more.
My favorite movies are all The Lion Kings, RENT, Fear, Lilo & Stitch, The Emperor's New Groove, Finding Nemo, Titanic, The Hot Chick, The Animal, Mean Girls, White Chicks, Step Brothers, The Hangover, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, The Little Mermaid, Across the Universe, Open Season, all three Toy Stories, The Parent Trap, Peter Pan, The Phantom of the Opera, and more.
I am a very emotional person. I can laugh, cry, or get mad at the stupidest of things. Therefore, I'm very bipolar. One minute, you'll see me all cheery and won't shut up, the next I'm just an emo little fucker that's quiet. So be careful about me. I'm trying to work on staying positive all the time, but it keeps failing... I'm always dependent. Like, super dependent. But towards my mom, I'm like "GTFO of my face". Yeahh. So..
Another thing. I. Love. Yaoi. There. I said it. Yeah. I do. Fuck you if you're against it. What, two dudes can't love each other? Uh huh. Go crawl back under that rock you call a home and get a life.
I have an obsession with cute things. They really bring out the best in me, and inspire me to act cute. I love people to say that I'm cute. It makes my day.
I. Hate. Posers. Like one of my ex-friends. Posers are just fake people who just like things because EVERYONE else does. Well, she's the least of my worries now. If I ever talk about her, I'll refer to her as JBitch. Okay?
Anyways. I love playing video games. My favorites are The World Ends with You (Twewy), Kingdom Hearts II, Pokemon, Super Smash Bros Brawl, Zelda: Twilight Princess, and Shadow the Hedgehog.
Okay. I'll admit it. I am a hypocrite. And I'm a hater. I'm try to work on that.
But my main objective in life is to make people smile or laugh. If I don't do that, I feel like I did something wrong. If you aren't smiling or laughing with me, I'll have to ask if you're okay.
If you are going to read this, be careful. I will bitch. A lot. That's just me. Got a problem? GTFO.

Here are my favorite pairings--
FrUK. Spamano. GerTaly. TurkEece. Ameripan. SuFin. RusLat. Germcest. LietPol. Palletshipping/Foeshipping/GaryxAsh. PreciousMetalshipping/Huntershipping/GoldxSilver. Ignitionshipping/VolknerxFlint. SaiNaru.

I think that's enough information about me. So.. yeah.

Fucking AWESOME day!

Sadie spent the night last night! About fucking time!! I seriously forgot most of the shit we did. I remember that we were joking about Harry Potter and AIDS for a while.... XD

Oh and I FINALLY fucking beat Kingdom Hearts II! I was so excited! It only took me TWO tries to beat Xemnas completely. WOO!!

So today, I went shopping with my mom and grandma, and I got some awesome shit at Hot Topic!! I got a Kingdom Hearts shirt, a Gir shirt, a Heartless symbol pin, a pin that says 'Music = Life', a wristband that looks JUST like Roxas's, and some clippy bows. c: And then my mom fucking bought me Heart Gold! Yeahhhhhh!!! I've been waiting FOREVER to play!! Haaaa, that puts me in such a GoldxSilver mood. I'll have to go read some fanfics now. XD

- The tired, still needs to finish Vampire Knight Guilty, semi-hungry, Dem.

FINALLY beat him! Sadie tomorrow~

Alright, so I just beat Xigbar, from Kingdom Hearts, and I was like "OMG YES." because he was SUCH a bitch. But seriously, not as bitchy as Xaldin was. DEFINITELY not as much as Demyx. Which only furthers acceptance into Bailey's Kingdom Hearts "club" thing. I want to be Roxas, dammit!! D< Buuuut whatever. I wonder if I can get my friends to start calling me Dem/Demi/Demy. ;3;

Guess I'm starting on a Kingdom Hearts kick! Whee!! Now to go watch some Demyx Time and watch Saix Puppy and shit like that. I'm going to Kingdom Hearts-ify this world! Just you wait!

ACK. That reminds me. I need to finish 07 Ghost soon!!! Grrr.

Well Sadie's coming over tomorrow! I so can't wait for that! I'm going to be SO pissed if she reschedules AGAIN. She's rescheduled like three times already! Fuck!!

- In a happy, Kingdom Hearts mood, Dem. <3

Even if she was there, it was fun.

OHGODIHAVEN'TUPDATED.

Sorry. I've been so neglecting this website. D':

ANNNNYYYYWAYS.

I went and spent Bailey's last couple of days with her at her house with Krystal, Maveric, and.... of COURSE, Carolina. I am seriously over her. I thought I would cry because she wouldn't be in my life, but I'm better off. Fuck her. We sure do have some hell of a lot of memories. I'll slowly forget them and blah blah blah. But hell, I had so much fun. I watched But I'm a Cheerleader for the first time last night. It was fucking hilarious. XD Dante Basco as a gay guy made my night. He's the voice of Jake Long, Zuko, yeah. Then while I was trying to go to sleep, Carolina was just like talking about fucking scary movies, and she would say comments out loud of fucking photos she looked at, and it scared me. I think she did it on purpose, because no matter how many times I told her to fucking stop, she just ignored me.

Also. Maveric got 'arrested' and I was so fucking scared. It was only because he didn't have proof of insurance on his car and we weren't wearing seat belts, but still. And I shaved my legs for the first time with an ACTUAL razor. And we straightened my hair. And did my makeup. I'm still wearing the eyeliner. Now I'll probably wear eyeliner every day, because I know how to put it on. Sorry I've just been moping on and on about Carolina, but it's not like anyone reads these anyways, and I need to get my feelings out. *sigh*

I said bye to Bailey for good. :c (At least I think...)

So I was thinking. When I enter high school, I would start to call myself a nickname. I really want to be Roxas, but apparently someone already is Roxas, but they forgot who. I don't get that. I mean, if the person isn't that important to remember anyways, why can't I be Roxas? Whatever. I wonder if I can get my friends to call me Demy/Demi/Dem from my emo side's name, Demitri, aka Savage. Herpderp. But really. The Shane this is like, so old. I like Demy/Demi/Dem better. c:

-Trying to forget memories with Carolina and going to draw soon, Dem. <3

Fuck fuck fuck her and all her bullshit~

Sorry. I'm in a venting mood. It's about Carolina, dammit. >c

Anyways.

I went to go spend the night at Bailey's last night, because this is her last week in Winfield before she goes off to college. It was a pretty crazy fucking night. But Carolina just HAD to be there. Lately, she's only called me twice out of a long as period of time. What, is she bored of me? Good. Because I'm so fucking tired of her. She has to be the one that's talking, the one that's in everyone's business. If I'm trying to have a conversation, guess who has to be there to butt in that she's bored or something. Fucking Carolina. She and I used to be best friends. Well she's the one who fucked with it. So if she honestly wants me back, then she would call more. But she only calls if she's "super bored" or something. Thanks. Don't I feel the love.

Okay, I'll stop talking about that bitch. I'll talk about our crazy night. Krystal, Maveric and I went on this chatting website where you chat with random strangers, and it was hilarious. I mean, on webcam, there would be a lot of guy parts, and I felt awkward. But I found this guy from England, and he was twelve, and was so cute. He actually asked me if I wanted to go out with him. I couldn't believe it. I was so happy. But RIGHT AFTER that happened, guess who just HAD to come up and do nothing but show her fucking boobs to everyone. Carolina. Seriously, she looked like a fucking whore. Whatever. It's her fucking life. I hope I never have to see her for the whole summer. Oh, just realized, I'm going into high school with her soon. Whatever, I'll talk to Sadie, and ONLY. SADIE. Which reminds me, Sadie's supposed to come over today! But I fell asleep while EATING, and I got online RIGHT when she got off to take a nap. Dammit. Oh well. She better come over tonight. Otherwise, I'll be pissed. If she doesn't, then tomorrow then. I just really need to hang out with someone to take my mind off of the fucking bitch bitch bitchy bitch bitch needy attention whore.

~Not in the mood, Savannah. >:c

Don't I just feel GREAT?

Ughhhhhhhhhh.

Today, at like... 11 or so, I have to go to the doctor to see what the fuck is wrong with my ear.

I feel like shit right now. Not because of my ear.... but I feel like I'm going to throw up. And my chest hurts. Whatever.

Destiny is doing the usual and just pissing me off... I really don't want to see her on Wednesday... Maybe I can say something came up. She just.... really gets me down sometimes. I really wish sometimes I didn't love her. ..... Do I? I'm just so confused. I'm not good with love in the first place. *sigh* She never knows or really cares how I feel. It's all about her her her.

Well, there's my little rant of the morning.

I'm trying to watch all 24 episodes of Kuroshitsuji..... once I do that, I'll probably go and finish Vampire Knight Guilty. I'm so bad with finishing anime. I can't believe I actually finished Vampire Knight in the first place.

Also. My favorite character is Finny. I dunno why. He's just so cute!! Sometimes I'm about to cry for him!!! Buwahhhhh! <33

I wonder why my friends love me. My pathetic, whiny, bitchy, emo, self.

Maybe I have a Finny icon for this...