Is it sad I get pleasure out of people's misery and pain?

KAINXAIDOU IS MY FAV VAMPIRE KNIGHT PAIRING~

xx.
Nothing I say comes out right
I can't love without a fight
No-one ever knows my name
When I pray for sun, it rains
I'm so sick of wasting time
But nothings moving in my mind
Inspiration can't be found
I get up and fall but...

I'm alive!
I'm alive!
Between the good and bad's where you'll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I sleep when I die
I live, My life, I'm alive!
.xx

This is basically a diary. I have to write in it everyday, or it'll defeat the purpose. I mean, I just want to be able to express me feelings, and I guess this is the simplest way. Plus, you guys get to read about me and my day.

So, let's start with the information, I guess. I'll start with the basics and work my way up.

My name is really Savannah, though I would like to be called Savage.
I'm gonna break this up for you. I have 3 different 'people' that I am. Here's a little info about them all before you meet ME.

Shane: He's a player who talks like Beat (he talks all skater) and loves to have a good time. He's bisexual, but likes girls more. He has a girlfriend. (Destiny)
Savage: His real name is Demitri, and he's emo. He's also gay. But even though he's emo, he CAN and WILL smile. But little ones. But he smiles a lot.
Uke: I dunno his name, so I call him uke. He is my Clueless Uke side, and he doesn't have a sexuality. Though he seems gay. He likes cute things and loves wearing bows.

Okay. now about me.
Let's get something clear. I AM A POKEMON TARD. DEAL WITH IT.
I love anime, obviously. It's the best thing in the world to me. Diss it around me, and you'll SERIOUSLY be sorry. Especially if I know you. I WILL ignore you. You don't do that around me. Because I get pissed at the stupidest shit. Anyways, my favorite animes are Naruto/Naruto Shippuden, Axis Powers Hetalia, 07 Ghost, Junjou Romantica, Vampire Knight, Ouran High School Host Club, Death Note, KuroShitsuji, Soul Eater, Gravitation, Karin, Bleach, Code Geass, and I'm sure there's more.
My favorite colors are red, black, blue, and neon green.
I listen to almost ALL music, so I'm fine with just about anything. But my favorite kinds of music are Alternative, Rock, and Pop. The bands I'm currently addicted to at the moment are The Beatles, Breaking Benjamin, Blood On the Dance Floor, Skillet, and Three Days Grace.
My favorite non-anime shows are: Glee, Whose Line is it Anyway, Freakazoid, Third Rock From the Sun, Scrubs, Meerkat Manor, Fosters Home for Imaginary Friends, Dora the Explorer, SpongeBob, Teen Titans, Ed Edd n Eddy, Family Guy, and hell, I watch a lot of TV. There's a shit-ton more.
My favorite movies are all The Lion Kings, RENT, Fear, Lilo & Stitch, The Emperor's New Groove, Finding Nemo, Titanic, The Hot Chick, The Animal, Mean Girls, White Chicks, Step Brothers, The Hangover, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, The Little Mermaid, Across the Universe, Open Season, all three Toy Stories, The Parent Trap, Peter Pan, The Phantom of the Opera, and more.
I am a very emotional person. I can laugh, cry, or get mad at the stupidest of things. Therefore, I'm very bipolar. One minute, you'll see me all cheery and won't shut up, the next I'm just an emo little fucker that's quiet. So be careful about me. I'm trying to work on staying positive all the time, but it keeps failing... I'm always dependent. Like, super dependent. But towards my mom, I'm like "GTFO of my face". Yeahh. So..
Another thing. I. Love. Yaoi. There. I said it. Yeah. I do. Fuck you if you're against it. What, two dudes can't love each other? Uh huh. Go crawl back under that rock you call a home and get a life.
I have an obsession with cute things. They really bring out the best in me, and inspire me to act cute. I love people to say that I'm cute. It makes my day.
I. Hate. Posers. Like one of my ex-friends. Posers are just fake people who just like things because EVERYONE else does. Well, she's the least of my worries now. If I ever talk about her, I'll refer to her as JBitch. Okay?
Anyways. I love playing video games. My favorites are The World Ends with You (Twewy), Kingdom Hearts II, Pokemon, Super Smash Bros Brawl, Zelda: Twilight Princess, and Shadow the Hedgehog.
Okay. I'll admit it. I am a hypocrite. And I'm a hater. I'm try to work on that.
But my main objective in life is to make people smile or laugh. If I don't do that, I feel like I did something wrong. If you aren't smiling or laughing with me, I'll have to ask if you're okay.
If you are going to read this, be careful. I will bitch. A lot. That's just me. Got a problem? GTFO.

Here are my favorite pairings--
FrUK. Spamano. GerTaly. TurkEece. Ameripan. SuFin. RusLat. Germcest. LietPol. Palletshipping/Foeshipping/GaryxAsh. PreciousMetalshipping/Huntershipping/GoldxSilver. Ignitionshipping/VolknerxFlint. SaiNaru.

I think that's enough information about me. So.. yeah.

OHJESUSIHAVEN'TPOSTEDINDAYS.

July 24, 2010
Mood: Eager

Dear Diary,

HOLY SHIT FUCK BALLS.

Sorry I haven't posted in like.. FOREVER. I've been busy hanging out with friends. Also, playing this awesome game, Professor Layton. But FUCK. There's so many puzzles. Anywho, I've been looking into Pokemon some more lately, and Krystal and I decided that out of the human Pokemon characters, I would be Ruby (Brendan) and she is Gold. 8D Yaaaay. It seems that the more I grow to Bailey and Krystal, the more I move from Carolina. Eh, whatever. If she really wants to talk, she'd call. And she hasn't called me since we hung out. Soooo whatever. Well, I'm going to be gone tonight too, and I'm leaving in just a little bit to hang out with Bailey and Krystal (and later, Maveric, ugh) again. Oh and I'm going to be going to my grandpa's soon for ten days, and he doesn't have internet. But I guess it's good to get away from the internet for ten days, huh? I'll have Pokemon and Professor Layton to keep me busy. I'll be sad that I won't be seeing any of my friends for ten days, but I'm sure I'll survive. Especially getting away from Destiny. I mean, seeing her is OKAY, but STILL. She is boring as FUCK. But not Krystal and Bailey! Or Carolina. But only when I'm with Carolina by herself. Krystal I can hang out with only her OR Bailey, and vice versa with Bailey. So, see you guys later, I guess!

I underestimated supervillians with yellow minions that look like Pops.

July 22, 2010
Mood: Tired/Emo

Dear Diary,

Yesterday I went and saw Despicable Me with Carolina. Sadly, it was in 2D. I dunno why. But I loved it!! It was soooo so cute!! I thought it was just going to be 'eh' but no, it was awesome!! IT'S SO FLUFFFFAAAYY!! 8D

Anyways.. I finally kind of figured out myself. There are four different me's. There's Shane, who is very egotistical and thinks he's the coolest ever, and he's bisexual with a preference for girls. Then Savage, an emo that can smile and loves Breaking Benjamin, and he's gay. Then there's the unnamed one that is so Uke-y and loves pink and pasta and cute things. And there's Savannah, which is myself, and is a mixture of all three. Lately I've been Savage. Woo. So wanna help me find a name for my uber uke? :3

Urgh I need sleep. Carolina and I keep staying up to watch Phineas and Ferb! I STILL haven't finished The World Ends with You, and I'm mad at Carolina for forgetting Professor Layton AGAIN, because I REALLY want to play it. If I don't get it tomorrow I might just leave. I'm supposed to go to the park with her and Wes tomorrow. I think I'll dress like how Savage would dress. I'm going to wear my Breaking Benjamin T-shirt and try to find my black and white arm glove thingy. See the picture on this post? That's kinda what Savage looks like. Also, he's 4' 11". XD Well I'm going to go and be emo look for my outfit for tomorrow and wait for my bitch mom to make dinner.

~ ~ The very tired and hungry, Savage.

Remember, Friday is cake day!

July 21, 2010
Mood: Nervous/Eager/Yaoi-craving

Dear Diary,

Last night, Carolina spent the night. We stayed up until like 8AM. The main reason why is Phineas and Ferb. We were watching that show, and we figured out which couples we love. Mine (in order) are: PhineasxFerb, DoofenschmurtzxPerry, and BufordxBaljeet. <3 Haha we also were high watching Little Bill and laughing at NOTHING. Pfft well now I have 3 new people I roleplay as! Ferb, Human!Perry, and Baljeet. I don't really like roleplaying out BxB. It's too much like Cubanada, and that one's OKAY. Out of all my favorite couples, it's at the bottom. :/ But now I'm addicted to the show. 8D

OHSHITOHSHIT I WATCHED THE NEW HETALIA EPISODE WITH SWEDEN AND FINLAND. IT WAS JUST... SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Ahem.

I hope I can get a Phineas and Ferb T-shirt sometime. That would be awesome. I'm listening to the theme song right now. Haha, that reminds me. The title is just a random line that I remember hearing on Phineas and Ferb last night. I think Doofenschmurtz's robot said it. Pffft.

Oh and last night, I realized how much I LOVE roleplaying LietPol. <33

Well tonight Carolina and I are going to go see Despicable Me in 3D tonight. Wheeee~ I'm kind of nervous, because I always get nervous before going to see a movie in a movie theater for some reason.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF THEY'RE SO CUTE. <3333

Shut up woman, get on my horse!

July 19, 2010
Mood: High/Tired

Dear Diary,

FFFFFFFFF. IMSOTIRED.

But... high.

FUCK I'M LISTENING TO AMAZING HORSE ON REPEAT.

..

Okay, now I'm listening to The Beatles. WOOOOOO.

ANYWAYS.

Yesterday, I stayed the night with Destiny, and FUCK. ORDER OF EVENTS TIEM.

July 18th, 2010. 6-7AM. I had stayed up from the night before, so I was ABOUT ready to go to bed. Then Destiny asked if I was online. I'm stupid and said yes, so we arranged that I would go to church with her.

July 18th, 2010. 8AM? She comes over and picks me up, then we go to church. All we did was kill my Zune by listening to it while drawing.

July 18th, 2010. Noon. We go back to her house and take a 4 hour nap.

July 18th, 2010. 4PM. We wake up, literally make pizza, and watch Jacob Two-Two. Then we... shit I can't remember. D8

July 19th, 2010. 3-4AM. By this time, we were looking up emo hairstyles, then starting looking up emo guys making out. FFFFFFF. <3

So yeah. I haven't been to sleep since then. God, I really need some sleep. But The Beatles aren't helping. I feel like sitting in a field of flowers to talk to myself about my life. ... Or a yellow submarine. Pfft.

I guess I'm going to post the mood with my entries now. c:

HERE COMES THE SUN, DOONNDOODO, HERE COMES THE SUN, I SAY! IT'S ALRIGHT!! BADUHNANANANA!!!

... Because that was in caps, I hear myself singing that in a screamo voice. TTFFFFTTT.

Oh, and if you don't know the song, get the fuck out of here right now, because you are a failure of life and don't deserve to read about my life.

Oh yeah. FUCK THE NEW HETALIA EPISODE HAS SWEDEN IN IT, WITH ACTUAL LINES AND WHATNOT, BUT NOOOOO. IT ISN'T DUBBED. AND I REFUSE TO WATCH IT RAW. RRRRGGGGH. >:[

And to top it all off, I'm hungry. ... Wait. There's a Pizzone in the fridge!! Okay, I'm less cranky now.

You can find why I titled this entry what I titled here. 8'D

~ ~ The soon to be eating and high, Neku RINGOOOOO. <3

I wish I had money!

July 17, 2010

Dear Diary,

Today was very... dramatic. I went to bed at midnight watching Degrassi, and woke up watching Degrassi at like 3AM. My mom and I talked about what the hell I'm going to do when she goes to Colorado for ten days... we actually were nice to each other. After that, she went to work and Krystal got me hooked on playing dating sim games on DeviantART. Then I went to sleep and woke up around 5PM or so.

I am not happy with my school schedule anymore. For some reason, I don't have choir anymore. .-. But JBitch does? What the fuck. Seriously, she knows NOTHING about choir. AND she can't sing! And I've been in choir for TWO years!! Urgh.

Haha, when the pizza guy came, I didn't have pants on and my mom wasn't home. XD But I got some pants on and told him to come back in 10 minutes. Luckily, the pizza and pizzones weren't cold~

So, I need some money. All I want right now are wigs to cosplay with! I don't even need the actual outfits! I just want some wigs!! But first, I need to loose a LOT of weight. I think I'll go on walks daily and drink NOTHING but water!! Yeah! And try to eat healthier! So, any suggestions on who I should cosplay as? I'd love to hear them. It seems like no one ever comments on these.. Do any of you read this? Because I feel like I'm talking to myself. .-.

Here's a little list of who I want to 'cosplay' as:

-Neku from TWEWY
-Prussia from Hetalia
-Italy/Feliciano from Hetalia
-England/Arthur from Hetalia
-Teito from 07 Ghost
-Naruto from Naruto/Naruto Shippuden (I have a Shippuden jacket, actually. XD)
-Shinobu from Junjou Romantica (With someone to be Miyagi!!)
-Hikaru/Kaoru from Ouran High School Host Club
-L from Death Note
-One of the Beatles (XD I want to wear a wig from when they all had the same hair!)
-Soul from Soul Eater
-Kurt from Glee
-Winner from Karin
-Ciel from KuroShitsuji
-Shuichi from Gravitation
-Roxas from Kingdom Hearts II
-Sanichi, my OC

Tell me which ones you want to see me as the most, and I might try to work on a way to get the money for them. ;3

~ ~ The very money hungry and cosplay deprived, Neku.