Is it sad I get pleasure out of people's misery and pain?

KAINXAIDOU IS MY FAV VAMPIRE KNIGHT PAIRING~

xx.
Nothing I say comes out right
I can't love without a fight
No-one ever knows my name
When I pray for sun, it rains
I'm so sick of wasting time
But nothings moving in my mind
Inspiration can't be found
I get up and fall but...

I'm alive!
I'm alive!
Between the good and bad's where you'll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I sleep when I die
I live, My life, I'm alive!
.xx

This is basically a diary. I have to write in it everyday, or it'll defeat the purpose. I mean, I just want to be able to express me feelings, and I guess this is the simplest way. Plus, you guys get to read about me and my day.

So, let's start with the information, I guess. I'll start with the basics and work my way up.

My name is really Savannah, though I would like to be called Savage.
I'm gonna break this up for you. I have 3 different 'people' that I am. Here's a little info about them all before you meet ME.

Shane: He's a player who talks like Beat (he talks all skater) and loves to have a good time. He's bisexual, but likes girls more. He has a girlfriend. (Destiny)
Savage: His real name is Demitri, and he's emo. He's also gay. But even though he's emo, he CAN and WILL smile. But little ones. But he smiles a lot.
Uke: I dunno his name, so I call him uke. He is my Clueless Uke side, and he doesn't have a sexuality. Though he seems gay. He likes cute things and loves wearing bows.

Okay. now about me.
Let's get something clear. I AM A POKEMON TARD. DEAL WITH IT.
I love anime, obviously. It's the best thing in the world to me. Diss it around me, and you'll SERIOUSLY be sorry. Especially if I know you. I WILL ignore you. You don't do that around me. Because I get pissed at the stupidest shit. Anyways, my favorite animes are Naruto/Naruto Shippuden, Axis Powers Hetalia, 07 Ghost, Junjou Romantica, Vampire Knight, Ouran High School Host Club, Death Note, KuroShitsuji, Soul Eater, Gravitation, Karin, Bleach, Code Geass, and I'm sure there's more.
My favorite colors are red, black, blue, and neon green.
I listen to almost ALL music, so I'm fine with just about anything. But my favorite kinds of music are Alternative, Rock, and Pop. The bands I'm currently addicted to at the moment are The Beatles, Breaking Benjamin, Blood On the Dance Floor, Skillet, and Three Days Grace.
My favorite non-anime shows are: Glee, Whose Line is it Anyway, Freakazoid, Third Rock From the Sun, Scrubs, Meerkat Manor, Fosters Home for Imaginary Friends, Dora the Explorer, SpongeBob, Teen Titans, Ed Edd n Eddy, Family Guy, and hell, I watch a lot of TV. There's a shit-ton more.
My favorite movies are all The Lion Kings, RENT, Fear, Lilo & Stitch, The Emperor's New Groove, Finding Nemo, Titanic, The Hot Chick, The Animal, Mean Girls, White Chicks, Step Brothers, The Hangover, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, The Little Mermaid, Across the Universe, Open Season, all three Toy Stories, The Parent Trap, Peter Pan, The Phantom of the Opera, and more.
I am a very emotional person. I can laugh, cry, or get mad at the stupidest of things. Therefore, I'm very bipolar. One minute, you'll see me all cheery and won't shut up, the next I'm just an emo little fucker that's quiet. So be careful about me. I'm trying to work on staying positive all the time, but it keeps failing... I'm always dependent. Like, super dependent. But towards my mom, I'm like "GTFO of my face". Yeahh. So..
Another thing. I. Love. Yaoi. There. I said it. Yeah. I do. Fuck you if you're against it. What, two dudes can't love each other? Uh huh. Go crawl back under that rock you call a home and get a life.
I have an obsession with cute things. They really bring out the best in me, and inspire me to act cute. I love people to say that I'm cute. It makes my day.
I. Hate. Posers. Like one of my ex-friends. Posers are just fake people who just like things because EVERYONE else does. Well, she's the least of my worries now. If I ever talk about her, I'll refer to her as JBitch. Okay?
Anyways. I love playing video games. My favorites are The World Ends with You (Twewy), Kingdom Hearts II, Pokemon, Super Smash Bros Brawl, Zelda: Twilight Princess, and Shadow the Hedgehog.
Okay. I'll admit it. I am a hypocrite. And I'm a hater. I'm try to work on that.
But my main objective in life is to make people smile or laugh. If I don't do that, I feel like I did something wrong. If you aren't smiling or laughing with me, I'll have to ask if you're okay.
If you are going to read this, be careful. I will bitch. A lot. That's just me. Got a problem? GTFO.

Here are my favorite pairings--
FrUK. Spamano. GerTaly. TurkEece. Ameripan. SuFin. RusLat. Germcest. LietPol. Palletshipping/Foeshipping/GaryxAsh. PreciousMetalshipping/Huntershipping/GoldxSilver. Ignitionshipping/VolknerxFlint. SaiNaru.

I think that's enough information about me. So.. yeah.

I never remember what happens if I get 4 hours of sleep!

July 16, 2010

Dear Diary,

Yesterday, Bailey, Krystal, and Maveric all stole me away, with this annoying bitch Kelly or whatever. God, she did NOT fit it. I do not like her. Not one bit. /RAGE D<

ANYWAYS, we watched Knowing, and Maveric got scared a lot with me. XDD Damn aliens and whatnot. And I stayed up until like 7 in the morning just playing The World Ends with You. I'm almost done with it!! Dammit!! I SO ship NekuxJoshua. <33

Then, when I got up around noon or something, we all (FINALLY excluding Kelly) watched Zombieland. It was so... Random. But good. I liked it! AND it had Andy Samberg in it, which made it better. <3 And Maveric kept fucking scaring me by screaming randomly. Like when I was going up the stairs he hid and jumped out of nowhere and I thought he was a zombie. So after that, we watched this awesome show called Degrassi, and GOD I'm going to get addicted. A guy was over at his lab partner's house, and he kissed him. I squealed. XDD Pft so Maveric left, and Bailey, Krystal and I watched Italy's voice clip! and they came out with more! I was so fucking excited!! Todd Haberkorn does an.. odd Italian accent. But whatever. I think he's doing good. I don't like Spain's voice. XD Or China's.. But whatever. Well, that's all I'm writing today!

~ ~Love the hungry, hungry Neku.

My friends DO love me. ;3; Happy Birthday France~

July 14, 2010

Dear Diary,

Happy Bastille Day! HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANCE, YOU SEXY SOB!!

Haha. Well I'm not really doing much today, considering the fact Carolina is still at the hospital dealing with family troubles... I'll have to draw something or something.

ANYWAYS. Last night, around 10 or so, Bailey, Krystal, and Maveric came and random picked me up!! And I got to spend the night with them! It was so fun! We finished Glee, and Krystal and I discussed FinnxKurt scenarios. XDD They were funny. And today, Carolina called me and we talked for like 2 hours, so I guess she's not scared of the brain tumor much anymore. I'm so happy my friends actually care about me!! And I found Rebecca, so it's all good. =w= But there's only one person STILL getting me down. Guess who. Ugh. Well I'm in a happy mood, and I won't let her ruin it.

In other news, I heard France's voice clip and was PISSED at the stupid USxUK in it.. URGH. DAMN YOU FUNI.

Ta ta~

I'm alone, and Destiny sure isn't helping.

July 13, 2010

Dear Diary,

Ugh. Destiny just continues to bother me. I HATE conversations with her. I never noticed how much I hate being with her nowadays. She. Is SO fucking boring! I miss when she was actually entertaining. This relationship is so roller coaster-y right now. God. I don't even think she's trying anymore. If you REALLY miss me, you would TRY to see me. Nope. She isn't.

I feel so alone! I really want to see my friends. Especially Carolina. She won't be talking to me much on the phone anymore because of family troubles she's having, and she read somewhere that talking on the phone for more than 30 minutes a day heightens the chance of a brain tumor or something. And she's really paranoid. Greattttt. Carolina is usually what gets me through the day. Well, I hope she can come over tomorrow to celebrate France's birthday with me. But she says she doesn't know if she can, because of her family troubles.

I'm so selfish. ;-;

The only other people that I really want to hang out with are Krystal and Bailey. That's it. Really. Or Sadie.

Also. Where the FUCK did Rebecca go? She hasn't talked to me in like a week.. She hasn't done anything.. She used to get on everyday.. Where are you, Rebecca??

Oh and England's dub voice made me laugh so much. I love it. I'm betting France comes out tomorrow <3

RAAAAAGE.

July 12, 2010

Dear Motherfucking Diary,

WHATTHEFUCK.

NO.

REALLY.

WHAT THE FUCK.

I can't even explain how mad I am.......

Know why?

Go ahead, guess.

It's a person.

Yeah, it's Destiny.

FUCK FUCK FUCK.

She's such a motherfucking poser. FOR THE LAST FUCKING TIME. YOU WILL NEVER EVER BE ACCEPTED TO THE FUCKING HETALIA LOOP. GET THE FUCK OVER IT, YA BITCH. YOU DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHO PATRICK SEITZ IS, POSER. YOU CAN'T BE ALL "OMG NO WAY HE'S PLAYING GERMANY?" IF YOU. DON'T. KNOW. WHO THAT IS. FUCKKKKKK YOUUUUU.

I'm just really pissed. Because she has BARELY been talking to be. And every time I go over to her house, she's so fucking boring! I really just want to stab myself sometimes! URGHHHHHH. So I asked her WHY she was doing this, and she was like "What no I call you all the time and you never pick up" THAT'S a lie. Hello, BOTH my home phone and cell phone notify me when I miss calls. And even if we do talk, we only talk for 5 minutes. KNOW WHY? KNOW WHY? SHE'S SOOOO FUCKING BOOOORRRRRIIIINNNNGGGGGGG. She's always on the fucking computer just doing shit when she's talking to me. Why the hell do I have to be in love with her? I dunno. I wanna cry. ......

Well I'm listening to Success is the Best Revenge by BOTDF.

Ha, my mom tried to chew me out with my dad, but my dad wasn't mad at me at all. FUCK YOU, MOM.

Sorry. I really do hate her. But eh, we HAVE to live with each other. Pft, it's not like she has anyone else. Lonely bitch. I know I know, I'll feel guilty about this later. Whatever. I'm pissy right now.

Bailey's grandpa's house~

July 11, 2010

Dear Diary,

Bailey came back to get me, and she said that we were going to spend the night in her grandpa's house because we had to go babysit a dog. (Dogsit?) And she's like "Well it's a big house, it's kinda scary. We should invite someone." So I invited Krystal to spend the night! We went and got her, and away we went!

We got to her grandpa's house, and MAN was it big! It was so awesome! It smelled good too.. XD Bailey brought her Wii, and she realized that she forgot the Wii remotes, so she went back into town and got them and a pizza. That left me and Krystal to make some macaroni. We were just loling so hard at everything. It was so hard to find things, because the house had like 30 different drawers and cabinets. Pft we found a big ass turkey baster.. We giggled. So we got the macaroni done, and that's when Bailey came home. Maveric came over too, to my disappointment. I mean, I've never really been with JUST Bailey and Krystal. Maveric is SUCH a drama queen, and he's mean sometimes. But, whatever. So we made the pizza and when we were done, the pizza cutter came apart. XD And we are a little family now. Bailey is the mom, Krystal's the dad, I'm the son, and Maveric's my big sister.

Next, it was time to go into Bailey's grandpa's room. We wanted to watch something, and I just said "Uh I have Glee.." So Maveric took Krystal and I into town, and my mom wasn't too happy about me showing up at like midnight to get my Glee. I also tried to get my Playstation 2, but she's like "FUCK NO" so we got Krystal's laptop instead. And we stayed up until like, 6AM watching Glee. We only completed up to the 6th episode. But we laughed so much at it. XDD

Also, Maveric found a BIG ASS spider outside, that had a web in this big window in the kitchen. He named it Wolfie. XD We thought it was a Wolf Spider.. so.. yeah. Just felt like saying that. I guess Maveric wasn't SO BAD to have out there.... Though he did fart on me a lot and I almost threw up. But whatever~

Oh, the emotion on this day is expressing me right now, because I only got about 4 hours of sleep and I'm so hungry. -.-;