He hates me... But I still love him! I dont know what to do, I've been crying for the past 5 hours with no end in sight! I'm sorry! I'm so fucking sorry! But he doesnt understand! Now I just want to crawl up and die! I'm Sorry! I dont know how many times I'm going to have to say it!!! This is torture...Stop hesitating, if you are willing to forgive me, say it, end my crying and suffering. If your going to end us, then tell me, just end my false hopes. I'm sorry, for the millionth time, and I still love you, Mike... Why do you hate me so much... I miss you... Damn these tears! My eyes freaking hurt! I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I dont know what you want me to do! But whatever it is, tell me! I dont want us to end yet! God, I'm sounding so selfish... But.. what if he's done with me... what if he hates me so much... that... he hopes i die... or he goes and tells people all my secrets... I cant do this!! Ashley told me what he said, "I told her a secret and she made fun of me. Fuck her, the next time i see her, i'm breaking up with her." Just thinking about him... I cant fucking do this... I cant believe that this may be the end...