As I just found out today.. a girl I was friend since childhood and am okayish now was there at the bar while that creepy dude was blackmailing me... She was there while he was sending me those suicidal notes and she didn't tell me...
Today she called me and was all like that guy really cares bla bla.. bullshit!!! I can't believe it... I truly can't believe that she didn't tell me that that lowlife was drunk at her bar and sending me those messages.. God do I feel stupid now.. *sigh*
Wow I don't remember when I hurt like that the last time... is this kind of behaviour really fucking normal to people so that they allow it?! I don't know anymore.. I'm just so sad and disappointed right now..
I wish they all would just disappear from my life... all those selfish, shallow and egocentric people... they should just vanish and leave me alone... I really thought such a behavoiur is high school drama and not young grown ups... Do I really freakin deserve that?! Seriously... just go away and leave me alone... I truly need some better environment.. :(

~Sasusaku