Hey whats up. I missed school again, sorry i just dont like it there. I hate all the people,the teachers, everything. I wish there was some place i could go. I hate mom so much. i know shes lieing to me. One day shes all fucking sweet and the next shes a bitch. I cant take much more of this,im tired of crying everyday for her lies. I mean like on saturday she was all happy when she was around you and me, and today shes all fucking rude. My GOD i hope they take her back to the crazy house. At first i thought she was gonna come back but now im not sure. I wish i could just "disapper" im tired of hurting and cryig. It not fair to me. But I dont really care anymore, im pretty sure im gonna be dead in a few years anyway from my nerves. Its getting to the point where I want to talk to the phycotrist. Im hurting so bad. Mom said that she doesnt want anybody who would control her money. And i said well did you talk to him about it, And her exact words where Should i have to talk. YES thats what a realationship is founded on it COMMUNICATION!My god im fucking 15 and i know that!
I wish she would just let you adopt me.I would be so much happier. Its sad how badly shes pushing me away. Its getting to the point where I dont want her tp have anything to do with me or with my kids. Shes asked me what was so bad about Marion High. EVERYTHING I dont need someone elses opinon on how bad of a school it is. I CAN MAKE THAT FUCKING ASUMPTION ON MY OWN! The teachers suck, i hate the classes, the coreculume is all wrong, and they use out of date books! OH but im just baseing my decison on what you told me acording to her. Cause im just another dumb teenager who cant make a decision.
She also thinks that you havent changed. SHE HASNT CHANGED. Shes to much of a bitch to give anybody a second chance. Most people who have been told what they do wrong change it! I know Eddie and Rita had something to do with what she thinks. She can say all she wants that I cant judge them cause i dont know them. I dont have to know them to judge them. She judges famous people and she doesnt know them so WHAT THE FUCKS THE DIFFERENCE! Their people yet u wanna judge them!
I just dont know what im gonna do. Im hurting to much. I dont wanna eat anymore, i just wanna quite school and say Fuck it all.
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I hate my life