Hey guys, long time no see.
Things have been crazy hectic if I haven't told you before, but my life has been flipped upside down.
It really took a turn for the worst when last week on Friday, at 2:30 in the morning I got a text message from one of my best friends in Texas (I'm in Virginia), whose like a brother to me, no, he is a brother to me, and he basically tried to committ suicide. I have never been so freaked out in my entire life, I don't think I'll ever be so scared again. I was calling everyone I knew trying to get someone to help him out, he wasn't answering his phone and it was just crazy. Luckily, he didn't committ suicide and he was admitted to the hospital. He's doing okay now and says that he won't do it again, but I'm still a bit scared because apparently that was the third time he'd tried to kill himself. v_v
It hasn't helped that, like everyone else apparently, I've been kinda depressed and un movtivated lately. I haven't really wanted to do any school work, and I've really missed my boyfriend more than usual. Maybe it's because I keep seeing all these different couples and watching Nana (that might have something to do with it) so it keeps bugging me. *sigh* I wish he didn't live so far away.
Plus, we're about to move again, and the whole family is stressed out, and I hate it when this happens. It's like I can't move a foot without someone screaming at me and it's really driving me up the wall.
Plus, it's prom time and I'm not going cause none of my friends are going and I don't have a date. Which is fine I suppose, but it really sucks cause next year for my senior year I won't get to have a senior prom cause there ISN'T one over there, and my boyfriend is going this year with some girl, I mean, I know about it, and he asked if it was alright, they're just going as friends, and I trust him and all, but I just get jealous, you know? Like, I want to be over there, and sometimes I get too damn emotional...
Sorry for being emoistic to you guys, thanks for being here.
Catherine
