Inking makes me sad

Hey guys, well, my summer vacation just started, and I'm trying to work diligently on my manga. Not going so well. Well, I mean, it is, but isn't. My rough sketches look nice, but my illustrations and final products look like crap, er, not as good as I would like them to look. I mean, it's like my inking abilities haven't gotten any better. (Traditional) because as much as I like how clean digital looks, I really want to stick with traditional artwork. I like doing it and I feel more...like an actual artist? I dunno, but I don't get the same sense of satisfaction when I draw on the computer as when I do in real life.

But I'm having difficulties inking. If anyone has any tips for me, or knows a good "how to" site or tutorial PLEASE link me. I'm desperate. I can't do this on my own anymore, all that I know up to this point is me just playing around with inks and colors, I can't afford to do that anymore, I'm determined to actually get my stuff published. I want my stories out there for real, as I've explained to people, I'm not doing this strictly for my own entertainment (but I certainly wouldn't be attempting this if it didn't entertain me) but I want to become a pro. I want to make this my career and I get so frustrated that I want to start smashing things!! UGH! ME SMASH! lol Anyhoo, don't get the idea that I'm depressed, I'm not, merely...invigorated and envious of people that can. lol

Have a great day, no piccy for now because I'm on my older sister's computer cause she doesn't have wireless and we're staying at her house so my laptop doesn't have internet! *sob*

CATHERINE

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