omg, people. i am so so so so so so so sorry i havn't been on. mum bloked my post page and so i am using my bro's account. she is being a pain in the a## and i am getting tired of it. geez, i am glad that i am going to b 18 next year. i can finally move out!!!!!!! lets check in on me shall we?

My summer sux, my dogs are fighting, the band isn't really good at the moment, tyler and i got into an argument, i am being shunned from my friends, my work is closing down, i cried for 2 days because of michael and farrah, i gained 10 pounds in 2 months, i am getting sick and tired of my mum, i actually beat a game (FABLE 2), abo0ut to kill meself, changing my wardrobe a bit (adding more color, but still emo) purchased my second manga (nana vol 1), going to murder who ever pats me on the back again, don't like being touched, frightfully scarred of my mum, about to go insane if i do'nt get out of the house for a couple of weex, having a very bad case of writers block, learned that i am being replaced by my friend because i cann't sing normally or draw perfectly (another story), having more thoughts of suicide, losing hope to life, narrowing down who actually likes me and hates me, trying not to murder my mumn in her sleep, turns out i am being held back into sophmore year, thinking about packing up and leaving my family and friends for a new life, and, yes, and i am in desperate need of major friendly love.

so, my life is falling down past the chart. but being in the cyber world and escaping through books has helped me a little. but not alot. i am still pissed that i can't explore life like i want to. you know y? because my mother is holding me back. she keeps on telling me to do stuff that her lazy a## can do. ugh, i even wrote a runaway note. and i hav it planned out. no, i am not telling anyone can i hav a friend who lives near me who is also on here.

gawd, my life sux.