everythings falling apart
iv been crying since 3 am this moring vary un rational for me but
i was with him for 5 years and he brakes up with me on Christmas i just dont know... hehe u didnt like Christmas before and now this!

im realy trying to make light of the situation but im failing HARD at it.... just listing to music beofore slowly try to head off to work one place i rather not be i really dont want to go to work its going to BE so hard.
i never realy talked about him cuz hes not a memeber on here and ya know jjust randomly talking about someones not cool idk i dont know anything anymore
i thought i was going to marry him ya know?

i dont think this is even making any sense haha.... and now imm going to work yay me... *hugs* i just needed to write so yeah ill see you all later? maybe i dont feel like doing anything right now

music that i have been listing too so sad like me