Welcome to my House of Ghosts. This is my world in my mind, it is a place where I hold my thoughts and the thoughts of my friends and family. A place to look at myself in the mirror if you will. My life is full of wonders and hardships. A lot of both I bring on myself so it's not like I'm complaining. I am a very complex person who contradicts himself at every turn, makes life interesting that way.

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When someone become a friend, no matter how far away you get, when you come back together, it's as if you never left ^_^

Name: Steven Desmond Reigns

Height: 5' 10"(70in)

Weight: 195lbs(88.6kg)

Age: 24

DOB: 9/21/1987

City: Los Angeles, California

Country: United States of America

Occupation: Private Security

Previous Occupation: US Army

Siblings: half brother Kang and half sister Lucy

Children: 6yr old adopted daughter Mei

Previous usernames: The Preventer(09'), Agent 49(06')

Hobbies: martial-arts, anime, video games, exercising, playing chess, swimming, and outdoor survival

Beloved anime: gungrave, ruroni kenshin, gundam 00, chrono crusade, code geass, read or die, bleach, naruto, and many more ^_^

Beloved video games: final fantasy series, tom clancy games, fable games, star ocean series, call of duty and battlefield games, tales of series, chrono trigger, lunar series, alundra, and many more ^_^

Beloved TV series: x play, south park, family guy, the simpsons, american dad, married with children, dan vs, young justice, the boondocks, king of the hill, the avengers: earth's mightiest heroes, spongebob squarepants, and many more ^_^

Beloved manga: love hina and star ocean

Favorite movies: action, comedy, drama, suspense

Favorite actors: Bruce Lee, Steven Seagal, Jet Li, Jackie Chan, Chris Tucker, Al Pacino, Bruce Willis, Jean-Claude Van Damme, Jason Statham Tony Jaa and more ^_^

Favorite music: west coast rap, alternative rock, punk rock, hard rock,and metal

Favorite artists: Bishop Lamont, West Side Connection, Mac 10, Ice Cube, Rammstein, Blink 182, Of monsters and men, Bury your dead, The Used, DMX, Filter, Smashing Pumpkins, Kill Switch Engage and many more ^_^

Martial arts: all black belts
Kali(Philippines special forces) 17 years
Aikido(Japanese origin) 14 years
SOC-P or Special Operations Combat-Program(united states special forces) 7 years
Krav Maga(Israeli special forces) 6 years

omnia's new quiz for me ^_^

Omnia apparently stole this from Hana Ishida, cause she stole it from someone else, then asked me to do it ^_^
Feel free to take it from me ^_^
Stolen~
Bold What Applies to You
I am a male.
I am a girl
I am shorter than 5’4.
I think I’m ugly sometimes.
I have a scar
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I want a tattoo
I can be self-conscious about my body.
I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have a piercing in a place other than my ears
I have freckles.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve run away from home.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I’m in school.
I’ve lost a child.
I have a job.
I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
I almost always do/did my homework.
I’ve missed a week or more of school.
I failed more than 1 class last year.
I’ve stolen something from my job...it's a military thing
I have a bad habit of calling people dude and bro
I’ve slipped out an “lol” in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I’ve peed from laughing.
I’ve snorted while laughing
I’ve cried from laughing so hard.
I’ve glued my hand to something.
I’ve had my pants rip in public.
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I’ve broken a bone.
I’ve gotten stitches/staples.
I’ve had my tonsils removed.
I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
I had a serious surgery.
I’ve had chicken pox.
I’ve had measles.
I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been to Canada.
I’ve been to Mexico.
I’ve been to Niagra Falls.
I’ve been to Japan.
I’ve been to Africa.
I’ve been to Hawaii.
I’ve gotten lost in my city.
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star.
I’ve seen a meteor shower.
I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts...it's a military thing
I’ve been to a casino.
I’ve been skydiving.
I’ve gone skinny dipping.
I’ve played spin the bottle.
I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve been skiing.
I’ve been in a play.
I’ve met someone in person from the Internet.
I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I’ve seen the Northern lights.
I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
I’ve played chicken.
I’ve played a prank on someone
I’ve ridden in a taxi
I’ve seen Rocky Horror Picture Show. LMFAO awesome movie *sighs with laughter
I’ve eaten sushi.
I’ve been snowboarding.
I’m single
I’m in a relationship.
I’m engaged.
I’m married.
I’ve gone on a blind date.
I’ve been the dumped more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I’ve gotten divorced.
I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t...it's a military thing
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
I’ve been kissed in the rain.
I’ve hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
I’ve snuck out of my house.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve cheated while playing a game.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve run a red light.
I’ve been suspended from school.
I’ve witnessed a crime.
I’ve been in a fist fight.
I’ve been arrested...it's a military thing
I’ve passed out from drinking.
I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
I’ve smoked.
I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
I’ve eaten mushrooms.
I’ve popped E.
I’ve inhaled Nitrous.
I’ve done hard drugs.
I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
I have 3 pills at a time no problem.
I have been diagnosed with depression.
I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
I’ve taken an anti-depressant.
I have been anorexic or bulimic
I’ve slept an entire day without needing to go pee.
I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
I’ve woken up crying.
I’m afraid of dying.
I hate funerals
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I own an IPod or an MP3 player.
I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
I own something from Hot Topic.
I own something from Pac Sun.
I collect comic books.

Mom (dedicated on mother's day)

Today is mother's day, and for me it's the first one without my mom. This post is dedicated to her memory. I loved my mom as much as my daughter. My mom always supported me, when I joined delta, when I joined the PMC, and when I was in college for herpetology.

My family was catholic, but I didn't want anything to do with the church. Mom completely excepted my decision and took a lot of crap from my family for it, but she didn't leave me by myself. I asked mom why didn't she take their side, she said it's because they are siblings, but I am her son. I was adopted by my aunt and uncle, but she loved me like I was her biological son, that's the kind of person mom was.

Mom is the kindest person I have ever known, she was a doctor like my biological mother, but my uncle told me that mom would help people even if they could not pay her, he said mom never turned anyone in need away, she even went to their house if it was bad enough. Mom is the reason I am such a nice person. My uncle taught me to be strong and brave, my mom taught me to be kind and forgiving.

Mom prayed for me everyday when I was in Iraq, I cannot prove God exists, but I want to believe he does, and he heard my mom's prayers to protect me and my team mates. Because I do not believe that people can get as lucky as we did coming so close to death so many times. The first time Vice, Marcus, and T.K came over my mom treated them like her sons also. All three of them still consider her a mom also, same goes for Kang and Lucy.

Mom never held anything I did in Special Forces against me. As far as she was concerned I could not do anything wrong. I did stuff in the army that makes me not even consider myself a human being at one time. Mom just wrapped her arms around me and said “we all make mistakes, it's how you make up for those mistakes that decides whether you are sorry or not” I never forgot those words she said, my heart was destroyed by the guilt of my past, but she always believed no matter how far I fell, there was still good in me.

Mom convinced me to bring the other most important person in my life, my daughter Mei. Mom convinced me to adopt her, mom said that I saved Mei, so I need to protect her. I adopted Mei like mom said, that was the best decision I ever made in my life. I was a soldier not a dad, mom showed me how to be both, she showed me how to cook and be a good dad to Mei. Mom helped me every step of the way. She made sure I was doing everything right. Everyone says I'm a good dad, that's because mom was a great teacher ^_^

Today is mother's day and I can't give mom a physical present, so I put most this post in a letter, put the letter in a mother's day card and burned them. In a private catholic school I attended as a kid, before going to public school by choice, we would burn letters to send them to loved ones in heaven, so they could read them. Thank you mom for everything, thank you for taking me in and supporting me every step of the way. I love you mom and miss you so much, and so does Mei. You made our little family strong mom, you brought me and my team mates, my half brother and sister closer. You made me remember over and over that people make mistakes and can be forgiven for them. That no matter how bad a person seems, their is still good inside of them. Mom I miss you so much, but you taught me as long as someone remains in you heart they never leave you alone.

what a day XD

Hello everyone, what an interesting day I had yesterday. I was at work per usual, nothing new went on there, training then paperwork, followed by more training after that. After work however I met up with some old friends from the army, namely members of TF121, the task force I was in while in Iraq ^_^

So we went sat around and gossiped like school girls about the old days in Iraq, so everyone no specifics, after all some of the stuff we talked about is still classified ^_^... Anyway after that went to a shooting range and just did some general hanging out and spent most of that time trying to 1-up each other XD.

After that we went to get a drink, which actually it's extremely rare that I ever drink, probably the first time since I left the Army actually and that was about 2 years ago now ^_^... So yeah an interesting day, ohh and apparently I got promoted to otakuite+ yesterday too. Just found that out also ^_^

A softer Angel of Death!?!?!?

Admittedly I have grown softer after years of combat. When I was in the 1st SFOD-D, I would kill without question, they point and the person on the other side of that finger dies, it really was that simple back then.

But the PMC is different somehow I don't know why, but I haven't killed everyone like in the old days. If I bring the enemy close enough for hand to hand combat, I just beat them down. In the old days I would just go for the knife and finish them right there.

When I sneak up behind an enemy I choke them out now. Back then I would have just shot or stabbed them. Don't get me wrong I ain't to soft, you cross me your dead, that still hasn't changed from the old days. But still I can't stop thinking about how much has changed since I left Delta.

While I am here I would like to give a shout out to my one two one (TF121) buddies ^_^, 1st Special Forces Operational Detachment-Delta(delta force), 75th Ranger Regiment(Army Rangers), Naval Warfare Development Group(SEAL team six), Air Force pararescue, 160th Special Operations Aviation Regiment (Nightstalkers), Special Activities Division. and help from British and Australian SAS, Marinejegerkommandoen, JTF2, GROM forces. ^_^ TYS to everyone listed here, for helping or being apart of the 121 and for all the amazing memories I was given while in the Army, God bless, watch over and protect all of you, and bring you all home safe and sound ^_^

sorry guys ^_^

I won't be on tonight, after work I have to drive to edwards airforce base in las vegas. So I will see you all tomorrow, take care and don't get into to trouble while I am gone. ^_^........and if anyone sees dovakiin sis(dragonseiryuka) tell her I miss her QwQ, and will be on tomorrow morning before I go to work, coz she's usually on then. bye guys, see you tomorrow ^_^