I usually don't post about my day in this world, but this whole weekend has been bad. This way I can tell everyone what is wrong at the same time also.

My weekend started out with me finding out that I might be investigated at work, for those of you who know me, you know I work for a private military company. An investigation means that I will be put on paid administrative leave, also means my permits will be revoked, I wont be allowed on company grounds, I will not have access to my work from my house, I will not be able to legally carry firearms or assists EMT's or police in anyway, as a stand in or back up.

basically how I looked all weekend

Then there was today, father's day, I have 2 dads, one I hate with all my heart and soul, I could have gone and seen him today, but I didn't even call him. then there is my uncle, who as far as I am concerned is my dad. He is in the kremlin in russia, and they use satellite phones, I cannot call him, or get in touch at all. So I was depressed most of the day but pretended to be happy for mei, but she saw right through my ruse, which made me feel even worse. But I spent the last 3 hours of this weekend actually being mildly happy, and that made her smile for real, which made me feel better, so yeah, a shitty weekend all the way to the end.