Eurrrrgh.
I feel like... rubbish. xD
For those of you who've read my previous post [haven't? check it out maaan. xD]
You'll know I've woken up with incredibly bad hayfever.
And I spilt medicine all down me when I sneezed
FAIL.
I have all my friendlings coming round today.
They're all still annoyed at each other and stuff >_>
One person said that if someone else was coming, they weren't.
But I said to them 'I am not univiting them. I would really like you to come, but if you're gonna be like that, don't'
And now they're coming.
Ahahaaa.
I am so cooool. xD
Anyways, gtg.
I need to get changed out of medicine-smelling clothes. ewwww.
Will post later saying how today went "/
I wouldn't be surprised if I winded up kicking them all out cause they're being horrible to each other.
I hope not >___>
Nickiiii.
Have You Ever...
pictured your crush naked?: Ahahaaa, NO xD.
been in love: Yup.
cried when someone died: Yup.
lied: Way too many times >_>
With The Opposite Sex...
what do you notice first?: I dunno. xD Eyes?
last person you slow danced with: No idea.
worst question to ask: I dunno, lots.
flowers or candy: Hmm.. Depends. xD
scruff or clean shaven: Clean
tall or short: A bit taller than me :P
Who...
makes you laugh the most?: Kayleigh/Lizzie
makes you smile: People
gives you a funny feeling when you see them: Dunno.
is easier talk to: Kayleigh probsss.
Do You Ever...
sit on the internet waiting for someone special to IM you?: Yeahh, ask Kayleigh xDDD
save AIM conversations?: Don't have aim.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: No :L
cry because of something someone has said: Yup, many times.
pray?: Nope
Have You Ever...
fallen for your best friend?: Nope
rejected someone: Yep
cheated on someone: No.
been cheated on: Yup.
done something you regretted: Umm... Not particularly, when I come to think of it. Everyone makes mistakes; I take them with a *pinch of salt* now.
wanted to die: Yup.
Who Was The Last Person...
you talked to on the phone: Sophie
hugged: Umm.. My Mum I think :L:L
you instant messaged: Jack.
you laughed with: Laura :P
Do You...
color your hair: No, but I want to >.<
ever get off the computer: Yeahh. xD But I do go on too much...
habla espanol: Errr... *help*
sprechen sie deutsches: isgnioaniopsm.
fight with your parents: I don't see my dad. But mum, plenty of times D:
have friends you've lost touch with: Yeah. :(
feel happy?: Not really; I've woken up to realllly bad hayfever >.<
wish you could fly away?: Sometimes
believe in God?: No
could you live without the computer?: No, I'd go insane probably :L [well, more insane than I am already...]
what's your favorite candy?: Errr... I don't have one D:
whats your favorite fruit?: Graaaapes. <3
sunrise or sunset?: Sunset. So pretttty.
what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?: Emotional
trust others way too easily?: I don't think so..
are your fingers cold?: Yesss. xD my hands are always cold, so are my feet. [I have bad circulation >.<]
coke or pepsi: DIET coke. :P
Final Questions...
I want: Many things.
I wish: For stuff
I love: People
I miss: People
I fear: Stuffff.
I hear: Tele adverts. xD
I smell: Medicine probably; I spilt some down me this morning. xD which reminds me I need to get changed after this ahahaa.
I wonder: Stuff.
*yes, I know I was very secretive with my last answers. Maybe I'll be more specific if you ask me :L xD*
when I woke up alone I had everything;
A handful of moments,
I wish I could change.
Ahahaaaa,
Today suckeddd.
& then I was talking to Laura.G [BadHairDay]
& we both mega bored. xD
So late afternoon we went and got a mcflurry
and then went to her house and went on the trampoline.
And then we went exploring round f'stowe. xDDD
And we found a hobo in a tent.
~ Which we are gonna visit one day in a big group :L
And then we had pizza and chips round hers :L
And her parents danced to MC HAMMER >____>
Hahahaaaa.
Oh well, funny end to a bad day :L
Nickiiii.
Heya Guys,
Idc if I have never spoken to you before in my life and you come stumbling past this blog randomnly;
I just really need some advice, no matter who you are.
Basically, it's been in my mind for absolutely ages, but I wanna see my Dad.
Let me explain...
He walked out just before my first bday, and I havent seen him since.
He lives extremely close to me but I have had no means of contact with him whatsoever. He actually lives four houses down from my best friend "/
But I really want to talk to him, just that curiousity element, yanno?
I've mentioned it to my mum before, but she thinks I'm being stupid and doesnt understand why I want to talk to someone who abandonned me when I was tiny.
But then again, he's my Dad.
I know for a fact that he's not a very well man; I received news the other day that a couple of weeks ago he almost died. If he had died; I would never have seen my Dad [except when I was a baby]. I wouldn't have any memory of him whatsoever. Except one photograph of him holding me when I was a baby; that's the only thing I have.
I say all this; But i dunno how to say it all to my mum. She really doesnt understand; there's a part of her that absolutely hates him.
But I also don't want to go behind her back.
I don't want to hurt her again.
</3
Nicki.
p.s. If there's any more info that is needed for you to understand my situation and help me, just ask, I am more than willing to give it.
I'm a walking travesty
Well, summer seems to certainly suck.
Second day of summer hols;
I am actually doing something today.
Wanna know what that something is?
Tidying
It's so much fun, seriously. *sarcasm alert*
But tomorrow should be a bit better,
Mum's at work all day,
So I am determined to find someone that is free tomorrow to come round :L
I'll just phone the whole of the gang :3
But.. They've all fallen out >___>
So they might refuse to come if someone else is >.<
Which means I'll have to choose
~ which is really gonna suck.
I wish Lizzie wasn't at Egypt; then I could just invite her.
Gawd, I am a loner. xDD
I wish my friends would just talk to each other;
It's kinda depressing.
Anyways, I'm off to tidy *enthusiastic voice >_>*
Nickiii.
