Heya Guys,
Idc if I have never spoken to you before in my life and you come stumbling past this blog randomnly;
I just really need some advice, no matter who you are.
Basically, it's been in my mind for absolutely ages, but I wanna see my Dad.
Let me explain...
He walked out just before my first bday, and I havent seen him since.
He lives extremely close to me but I have had no means of contact with him whatsoever. He actually lives four houses down from my best friend "/
But I really want to talk to him, just that curiousity element, yanno?
I've mentioned it to my mum before, but she thinks I'm being stupid and doesnt understand why I want to talk to someone who abandonned me when I was tiny.
But then again, he's my Dad.
I know for a fact that he's not a very well man; I received news the other day that a couple of weeks ago he almost died. If he had died; I would never have seen my Dad [except when I was a baby]. I wouldn't have any memory of him whatsoever. Except one photograph of him holding me when I was a baby; that's the only thing I have.
I say all this; But i dunno how to say it all to my mum. She really doesnt understand; there's a part of her that absolutely hates him.
But I also don't want to go behind her back.
I don't want to hurt her again.
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Nicki.
p.s. If there's any more info that is needed for you to understand my situation and help me, just ask, I am more than willing to give it.