Or is it meant to be this way?

Well I honestly feel like utter shxt.
I'mma bxtch.
And I feel like I've screwed up once again.
Me & Christian are now both :(
I think we both don't want to move on.
But I'm also trying to think of the reasons why I ended it.

Maybe this is a test.
Or maybe things were just meant to be this way.
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