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Yeah... The O died for me... Completely...

I'm packing up my bags and quitting TheOtaku... I don't know how to delete accounts and it's not like anyone here's my friend except the people that I know in real.

So...

GOOD-BYE, OTAKU!!!!

SEE YOU... NEVER!!!

...Okay, I might stop in time from time just in case of something... nothing more o.O;.

I freakin' hate life...

Mood: Pissed Off/Tired/Wants To Rip Someone's Head Off/Frig The Freakin' World

Currently Listening To: I have no clue... and personally, I don't care... okay, I do care, I hate this song -_-;.

What triggered this feeling, I don't know, but I don't like it. I've been pretty much pissed off all week... for reasons of my own and reasons for others. It's a definite, I'm entirely Anti-Love. I can't stand it anymore. I'm getting absolutely SICK of it... I rather die alone than to fall into one of those love traps that they very well make everywhere. I just want to rip out someones heart, put it on a stake, and then start yelling curse words into the air for no reason at all... or maybe make a big speal about it.
The reason, the people around me.... and not around me.
Some people can be so freakin' dense at times... going through things so fast that they don't even know what the future will hold for them in the future. It's like, wtf, you guys barely see one another or barely talked to one another and then were only dating for a few months or just been talking over the internet for a few days... and you already know you want to marry this person out of the course of those days without barely even getting to know them at all or for them to get to you know you? Yeah the fuck right. Like those are going to last very long... ~rolls eyes~.

Love at first sight is a bunch of bull. Sure, you may love them, but do they know that you love them? I think not, unless you go and make yourself noticeable for it or something, psh, yeah right. They might not even love you back in return... when they don't MOVE ON WITH YOUR PATHETIC LIFE ALREADY. Don't stay and sulk about it... that's just stupid. Move on and keep on going without letting go... if you let go, then you'll be down. How far down, it all depends on how much you make yourself fall. The only person who can pull you back up is yourself. It's not like your friends will help you out of the rut at times when you don't even know the problem that you're rightfully having. In the end, the only person that can take care of you, is yourself. No one else will be there... sometimes the significant other won't even be there to help you out of it, if you're even lucky enough to have one.

That's not even the whole thing that's pissing me off either... school's pissing me off more and more now. I'm getting sick of it and the pressures coming to not be failing any classes. I know I'm going to most likely fail math, I'm not doing any of the homework right now for it because I don't get word problems worth shit. It's all about writing inequalities and crap like that, yeah, I'm not going to get far with those. I can only do the normal ones... not the word ones. So, I have a high chance of failing math this year... and I've been doing so good throughout the year too...
Then, there's stupid Graphic Arts class. I can't do that class either. I can't keep on schedule and half of the time, I don't even want to draw anymore. I'm not passing in the homework because I can't do that homework either... my imagination is limited. I can't just come up with something like that for a class... I mean, if any of you people saw what I thought up for a stupid school handbook cover thing, yeah, it wasn't even acknowledged. But, I didn't want it to be acknowledged, so, that kind of made me happy. Surprising... whatever.
English, I'm really close to failing because of the stupid mid-term we had to take. I can't study, period. Nothing will stick in my head... nothing. Once I get the stupid thing, they'll all go away into flutters and be like, "We hate you, we want you to fail, bye now!" The Lord Of The Flies movie sucked! THEY WEREN'T FROM COLORADO, THEIR FROM BRITAIN! BRITAIN! DAMN THEM! The colored version sucked ass, but the black and white version kicked ass. That was actually following the book instead of making up their own storyline and plot length... the colored version was just stupid.
I think Civics is the only thing I'm passing pretty much, but with that test we didn't take too long ago, I highly doubt I'm passing anymore.
Man, I suck.

Right now, I just want to go crawl into a hole and die there... by myself... with no one around. Like an animal does when it's about to die. I don't see the point in living anymore... when I thought I did for so long. It's happening again... and I don't want it too, but it won't stop. The emptiness of it all. It's engulfing; overwhelming.
I just want to get away... get away from everything... but, I don't know where. Just, somewhere... somewhere far away where no one will be able to find me...

Just wish a place like that existed...

What's The Point?

Mood: Tired/Depressed/Downright Cranky

Currently Listening To: Cast It Out - 10 Years

Today... was kind of better... but not really though =/.
Been tired all day, maybe I shouldn't have stayed up until 12:00 AM in the morning all for that stupid person that didn't even try and stick up for himself, yeah, I don't care if he messaged her, I'm still pissed at him. I still think he's nothing but a douche bag for taking so long to respond to her. If someone REALLY loved someone THAT much, why not try and keep contact with them on the first day!? HUH!? YEAH! LOVE'S NOTHING BUT A BIG FRAUD IN LIFE. A FRAUD. Love shouldn't exist anymore, it's nothing but a troublesome aspect of life and just always gets in the way of things. I'm happy for my friend's that do have boyfriends and are in love, I am, this isn't going out to them at all. To tell the truth, I have really no idea who it's going out to. Maybe to myself or some unexplainable being who randomly reads this and starts to argue that I'm all wrong.
These are my thoughts, and my thoughts only. I don't what other people think, let them think what they want.
I don't know.
Love is useless... it isn't worth the time. But, no one can live without love because then all there would be, would be hate. Hatred shouldn't conquer all. But, love shouldn't conquer all either. They should be equally balances out on the scale. Scale out more than one on either side, you'll create a love monster or a hate monster.
I already know what side I'm on, undoubtedly, the monster side. I have been created into a monster by this world. I have evil thoughts that no one dares travel through. I have thoughts that I don't say aloud... or else someone will get hurt... for sure. But what does any of that matter now? It's not like I'm going to change anything. It's not like I'm going to change my ways after so long in living in darkness and blindness of everything. I think I'm truly blind on what everything means in the real world and life. Maybe I'm just aimlessly assuming things out of proportion and making into some horrible thing in my mind. Or, maybe I'm just being the stupid little girl that I'm always being each and every single day.
I'm not smart, I'm not pretty, I have no right to be living at this very moment, and I have no right to be saying any of this.
Freedom of speech and expression. Yeah, what freedom? There is none.

Bye.

Life... And What's Going On.

THESE THINGS ARE ALWAYS GOING TO BE PERSONAL, DAMMIT! D=<

...

Anyway, yeah, life... what about life...?
Life... life... life.
Life still suck in this household... it's been sucking for a long while now. My dad's gotten better, but sometimes he just needs to learn to grow up and not say stupid things about random crap.
That's my job, I'm a ravenous teenager, not him.
The mother is still a mega bitch... so, she really hasn't changed much. Her birthday's coming up as well. Her birthday is on Mother's Day... joy to the world. She's getting old. If my dad dies first I think I would literally kill myself if I have to live my life with her, by myself, all alone. I wouldn't be able to handle it.
Also, she would most likely make me move to the Korea, learn their language, take me away from my friends and all of that crap. She's a greedy little whore who needs to go do a goat or something and stay out of my life forever. Sure, she does things for me and everything like that, it doesn't mean she loves me. She may say it like every freakin' day, but it doesn't mean that she means it =l.
Yeah, I need a new brain and I need a new life, I got that down, Mother.
Son of a bitch.
I freakin' hate her so much, I do. I don't care what anyone says, all my friends hate her too. Either that, or they highly dislike her all the way. Then, she starts complaining to my dad. Yeah, when he's trying to sleep after not being able to have good decent day offs where he can finally have sleep. Tch, she has a loud mouth that needs to be duc-taped shut or something.
Also, HER HEAD BUGS THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME. IT'S FAT AND SQUARE. HOW THE HELL CAN SHE HAVE A SQUARE FREAKIN' HEAD!? IS SHE FROM THE LAND OF SQUARES LIKE ON THAT SHOW, ROLIE-POLIE-OLIE!? I believe so, I believe so v.v.

Yes, that is my rant about the mother from Hell.
I swear, she rules it.
Let God vanquish her for who she is... LIGHTNING! COME DOWN!
I SAID COME DOWN!
Damn, it's not working.
DAMMIT, I'M NOT GOD D=!
SHIT!
~Runs away~
IF I WAS, SHE WOULD BE DEAD BY NOW D=

Bread Tasted Funny...

TOMORROW! TOMORROW! TOMORROW! EVERYONE! MAKE A CHEER! HOORAH, HOORAH, HOORAH! XD

Tomorrow is Friday... one step away from vacation.
When vacation hits, hoo-boy, that will be a sight to see.
~Throws school papers everywhere~ SCHOOL IS OVER!!!
...For the week at least >_>;.
~Some random teacher come and tells me to pick up all the papers~...
Aw... ~Lowers head~.

When life gives one lemons, make lemonade... or add some whiskey in there to make everything better. >_>;. No, not really. Please don't.
I ISH AGAINST DRINKING AND DRUGS D=.
I'm only with the good drugs that actually HELP you throughout your time of crisis... in a good way, not a bad way >_>;.
SHUT UP D=