killmepleasealready
Hi, I'm Caitlin.
I'm seventeen and I live in New Hampshire, USA.
I pretty much hate majority of my life, but whatever.
I don't give a shit if you think how I am is bullshit, what you think doesn't matter.
I'm so fucking sick of fake ass people.
But whatever, life is life, I can deal.
Have a nice day everyone.
Anyone have myspace and/or AIM that'd like to get to know me or add me go ahead just tell me where you're from please.
MySpace - http://myspace.com/xxocaitlinx
AIM - xxoCaitlinXx

Just because I smile, doesn't mean I'm happy

pleasedon'thurtmeiwasonlytellingyouthetruthisn'tthatwhatyouwanted?

So...

I'm starting to shed a few tears.. and I hardly ever cry.
I can get wicked depressed but not cry.
I feel like I'm gonna start to like.. bawl my eyes out.

I'm just worried..
And I don't wanna be so worried.
I'm too worrisome a person.
Stresses me out more than I already always am.
Makes my head worse.
I swear my head is gonna explode one day...

Both of my temples are like, alternating turns on hurting reallly badly.
It sucks.. and its getting worse.

I just wish it would be okay again.
Would all be okay again.
Not that it ever was actually...

For once it'd be alright.
For one day, more wishful a lifetime.
But just a day, of pure bliss.

I don't know what to do anymore.

Good night.

Random picture for today..

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Had hardly any bits of headaches this weekend. +
Started talking to someone again. +
Went to a hockey game where my team won. +

Worried about my bestest friend ever... - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - -------------------------------------------------- Major negative point.
And I can't help... ---

My day yesterday. Happy Easter to all who celebrate it.

Caitigrl6492 (12:24:52 AM): I wore heels today... hahhh
BrittyLovesSP (12:24:56 AM): lol
Caitigrl6492 (12:25:05 AM): Oh yea. I went to the moviesss
Caitigrl6492 (12:25:13 AM): and saw Horton hears a Who...
Caitigrl6492 (12:25:16 AM): It was good...
Caitigrl6492 (12:25:21 AM): And to the 99 for lunch
BrittyLovesSP (12:25:24 AM): EVIL!!!
Caitigrl6492 (12:25:29 AM): I know
Caitigrl6492 (12:25:31 AM): =]
BrittyLovesSP (12:25:34 AM): so you went somewhere without me. -_-
Caitigrl6492 (12:25:39 AM): And to Burlington Coat factory..
BrittyLovesSP (12:25:52 AM): when I asked on Friday if you wanted to go somewhere, and you said you probably wouldn't be able to
Caitigrl6492 (12:25:53 AM): And got a pair of black dressy pants.. and shirts...
BrittyLovesSP (12:25:54 AM): butt face
Caitigrl6492 (12:26:09 AM): I didnt know I was going to a lunch and a movie..
Caitigrl6492 (12:26:20 AM): I was todl get dressed and lets go
Caitigrl6492 (12:26:48 AM): Then my dad went shopping for Easter baskets... so my mom took Krissy and i to the hair dresser..
Caitigrl6492 (12:26:54 AM): and I got a trim
BrittyLovesSP (12:26:56 AM): ooh
Caitigrl6492 (12:27:10 AM): and Krissy got her first haircut not done by herself of my mom
Caitigrl6492 (12:27:19 AM): and my mom got a haircut
Caitigrl6492 (12:27:42 AM): Then Burlington coat factory...
Caitigrl6492 (12:27:46 AM): And she got dresses
Caitigrl6492 (12:27:58 AM): and I got shirts and a pair of black dress pants
Caitigrl6492 (12:28:00 AM): for Easter.
Caitigrl6492 (12:28:18 AM): Then i was texting you in the car waiting for my mom to get out
Caitigrl6492 (12:28:25 AM): then my dad called and you had signed off.
BrittyLovesSP (12:28:33 AM): haha, okay I don't need the whole day
Caitigrl6492 (12:28:36 AM): then i went to my nannys
Caitigrl6492 (12:28:40 AM): then i came home
Caitigrl6492 (12:28:43 AM): and now here i am
Caitigrl6492 (12:28:48 AM): YES YOU DID!
BrittyLovesSP (12:28:50 AM): nooo
Caitigrl6492 (12:28:58 AM): but.. I didn't give you the first part anyhow
Caitigrl6492 (12:29:03 AM): So hah
BrittyLovesSP (12:29:24 AM): lol
Caitigrl6492 (12:29:36 AM): I slept til 10:56........... and laid in bed for like a half hour
Caitigrl6492 (12:29:45 AM): petting the puppies and playing with them
Caitigrl6492 (12:29:55 AM): Then they left me and i stared at the ceiling
Caitigrl6492 (12:29:58 AM): then i had to pee...
Caitigrl6492 (12:30:00 AM): so I did.
Caitigrl6492 (12:30:04 AM): And went on the computer
Caitigrl6492 (12:30:16 AM): and then my dad told me to get ready so I did
BrittyLovesSP (12:30:20 AM): -_-
BrittyLovesSP (12:30:21 AM): ha
Caitigrl6492 (12:30:22 AM): and we left and went out to eat
Caitigrl6492 (12:30:26 AM): there you go
Caitigrl6492 (12:30:29 AM): my whole day
BrittyLovesSP (12:30:33 AM): haha
Caitigrl6492 (12:30:45 AM): Oh I might have texted Dayday after midnight, no sure.
Caitigrl6492 (12:30:47 AM): not
BrittyLovesSP (12:31:13 AM): ooh
Caitigrl6492 (12:31:18 AM): Yea
BrittyLovesSP (12:34:36 AM): SHITFUCKCAKES!
Caitigrl6492 (12:34:40 AM): ?????
BrittyLovesSP (12:35:13 AM): theo pisses me off!
Caitigrl6492 (12:35:48 AM): oh
Caitigrl6492 (12:39:35 AM): Oh yea... i made a new screen name But I don't know if i like it yet.
Caitigrl6492 (12:39:42 AM): I'm getting sick of this one.
Caitigrl6492 (12:39:51 AM): no one calls me caiti except my dad
Caitigrl6492 (12:40:02 AM): and he's been such a douche lately.. sp yea
BrittyLovesSP (12:40:07 AM): oooh
BrittyLovesSP returned at 12:47:16 AM.

I need to go give her her present today.
I shalllllllllll!
Somehow.
If can.

Sooo...

I stayed home from school yesterday.
I had an awful headache, and I was wicked tired.
Sooooo, I refused to get up and kept falling asleep.
Lots of yelling at me from the parents.
But whatever.
Woke up around noon, which is when my dad and sister left to go ice skating or something.
Uhmmmmm.......
Then he called my phone, but it was silenced so I didn't hear it.
And the house phone was ringing, but i don't like answering it unless i know who it is but they always take the phone that's supposed to be in my room.
But, whatever.
So Ben yelled at me to pick it up, so I did.
My dad was bitching how I had to clean the dining room up.
I didn't, so when he got home he yelled more.
I got a wicked headache from it.
So Britt reminded me basically how it truly is stress related headaches.
Every morning stressful, so I get headaches and I don't wanna get up because if I sleep I can't feel the pain from it.

Sooo... i told my mom on AIM to tell her stupid husband to stop yelling at me and being a dickhead.
It's not my mess so I'm not fucking cleaning it.
I'm hardly ever over there.

Hmmmm what else.
Then she started being bitchy at me.
Then I blocked her.
Then Britt went to go sleep.
Then My mom texted me and told me to tell my dad she was at my Nanny's house, her mom.
So I went downstairs to show him the text after I believe her had just gotten off the phone with him.
He said i was shaking the phone, I was holding it straight out a foot in front of his face.
"WELL HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SEE IT IF ITSS TOO BRIGHT AND TOO FAR AND YOU KEEP SHAKING IT AROUND DAMNIT!!!"
So I just walked away when he started yelling.
Mumbling that he was a stupid dumbass and to stfu to myself.

Then My mom called me on her way home saying how my grandmother was only all bitchy and fucked up because her thyroid and all that. She wasn't taking it properly.
Now she's tons better.
I don't know if i believe it.
Oh well.
I might get dragged over there tomorrow evening to help her cook and such for Easter.
My mom gonna clean and I'll cook.
Helping her..
Blahblahblah.
I don't like her kitchen all that much.
I'd rather a more open area near the stove.
Insitead of there being five inches of counter then the fridge.
I hate that.
And its in the corner.
And it's too long. The penisula from the stove.
Oppostie sides, and its like twlve feet.
I want to have a island and have a stove sink and work area there.
That'd be awesome.
I've been kinda thinking how I'd like to maybe do a cooking type of job.
It's not like I'm extravagantly great, but I can cook nonetheless.

I went overboard at times with stress levels when I was talking to Dayday... hah.
I was in a bad place with my mind.

Anyways...
My mom kept bugging me.
So I finally went downstairs and colored eggs a little.
But then we attmpted tiedying shirts.
Dunno if itll stay.
Maybeee.
I haven't anything else to say.
I'm kinda in a good mood..
Lalalaa.
I kinda missed texting..
Not like it's alot.
But eh.

Laalalaa/

My mom is annoyinggggggggggg
And bitchyyyyyyyyyy
LALALAAAAAAAAAA..............

I'm gonna bug her by playing "Stop and Stare" by OneRepublic Over and over and over and over and ovr and over againagainagainagainagainnnnnnnnn