I can't believe he smokes.
I can't believe he changed so much.
I just can't...
He was the majority of the time nice brother.
Why'd he have to go and change...?
He was nicer then Ben to me.
Still could be a total jackass but at least somewhat paid any attention to me.
Aren't older rothers supposed to love their little sisters?
I changed my necklace this morning, and all I could think about was him.
I only changed it from the butterfly pendant to a star.
He gave me it almost a year ago.
A year ago the thirteenth.
He's been out of the house a year..
And about a week.
I had to walk to my mom's office after school today..
Did a lot of thinking.
Thinking about my brothers.
How Jonathan it was probably all bull shit or pity that he was nice.
Cause he sure didn't give a crap when I saw him earlier.
Didn't say one word to me.
Ben at least will talk to me.
And he's a lot nicer than he used to be to me.
Maybe Ben really cares more than he leads on.
But then again I doubt it.
I guess I really just miss my brother...
But he's not even my brother anymore.
And on top that, my mothers still as always and probably will be forever, ashamed and embarrassed by me.
What a cake topper.
