What is the best way to escape a world of depression, mounting suffering and pain? With video games of course. Lately I have been playing Final Fantasy 11. It has been my escape from this world. Lets face it, these days there hasnt been much to smile about and in my case there is no exception. I have no job since I was laid off back in January. Its not because I havent tried to get one - there is just nothing out there. I cant tell you how many applications I have put in for everything possible.

With no job comes no money and with no money comes no food. It is sad that the one time I relied on the government to provide with me unemployment money they have yet to send me a check. And I am starving. I have lost 5lbs in a week. I know it sounds unbelievable but when you dont have a way to buy the food you just go without.

It angers me that there are people out there that never worked a day in their lives and they are doing better than I am. Meanwhile I have slaved in factories all my life and this is where all my hardwork has gotten me: In a small broken down basement with no heat and no food.

Why is my life so disgustingly sad?