"You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts." --2 Corinthians 3:3
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TGIT
Thank God it's Thursday! Tomorrow's a teacher work day ['cause it's the end of the semester] so the students don't have to come to school tomorrow. How awesome is that?! I'm so excited about staying up until the wee hours of the morning watching anime and then sleeping in and laying around the house like a bum!! Ah. 3 day weekends rock. I still have a little bit more work to do before I can relax...like I have to go teach tap/ballet to kiddies. Woohooo. It's only 6 weeks or so until the recital, so we have to really crack down and get them to learn the dance. Right now me and their other teacher always perform the recital dances with them [in front so they can see us and mimick our movements] and some of them can do it on their own, while others can't. Their other teacher is going to be in front of the stage doing hand motions at the actual performance and because I'm the assistant teacher I get to be backstage making sure they do it right. Hopefully they'll learn it. But they're the little kids so sometimes it's cute if they mess up. They're cute anyways. Despite the fact that some of them have attitudes...it's ridiculous. Most of them are good, though.
I like them more than I like my own dance class. Everyone there hates me. It's hilarious. I think because I don't go to school with any of them I'm already a social pariah, but because of my attitude and my appearance they ostrasize me even more. I mean they're the prep school girls who always are well manicured and their hair is always perfect and they're always yapping about the most recent boy-toy and here I come--the weirdo from the Christian academy who hates pink...has only dated one guy [which I don't think any of them believe me about, by the way...I meantioned my ex-boyfriend once and they all looked at my like: "Oh, mah gawd, she's had a boyfriend?!"> anyways, and whenever I do open my mouth in that class it's always something morbid or sarcastic or weird. Like I mentioned the Virginia Reel the other day [it's a line dance, FYI] and they're all like "What's that?" Uneducated pretty girls. Get lives outside of your hair products and arm-candy boys who you've brainwashed. Geez. I'd rather be weird and ostrasized then be a Abercrombe-Zombie.
Anyways. That's my rant for the day. WEIRDO'S UNITE!
Whatever.
My classmates are jerks. Whatever. I had a fight picked with me in psychology. It was so stupid, too. And it almost made me cry. I'm 16. I shouldn't be almost crying in class. So we were doing some Algebra problem to demonstrate mathematical-intelligence and one of the 10th graders was saying that she didn't need to remember Algebra because she's doing Geometry right now...and I then stated that she still shouldn't forget it because she has to take Algebra next year. TAKE NOTE, I did not say this condescendingly. All of a sudden her boyfriend jumps (figuratively) at me and says, "Well, did you get it right?" I had Algebra with this guy and he KNOWS that I don't to well with math. HE KNEW THAT. He knew it and he had to ask that. It was ridiculous. I wouldn't have been so pissed had he actually asked it nicely but he gave me that "look" the one that says, "You know that you didn't do so well so where the heck do you get off saying what you're saying?" I swear, it was so stupid, but tears pricked my eyes. I told him, "No, as a matter of fact I simplified that fraction wrong--" HE DIDN'T EVEN LET ME FINISH MY SENTENCE. He went at me all like, "Well, then why are you telling her she should do better?" Me: "I didn't say that--" Him: "Well then don't be like that." Me: "What the heck?" Then my twin sister gets into it--and bless her because I would've started crying without the intervention--she says, "Oh stop it, you're just sticking up for your girlfriend." And he has the audacity to go against my sister [idiot, don't ever go against my big sister when she's defending me. She'd probably have punched him if we hadn't been in class.] and he was all, "Well you're defending your sister!" So, really, it was stupid. Really really stupid. I don't understand what the heck his problem was. But he seriousy didn't have to pick a fight. I was so pissed and hurt by it.
So my day deteriorated from there. I'm used to sitting alone [actually it's me and my sister] at lunch...but on days like today it hurts a little more... It didn't help that I started feeling like I was going to pass out, either.
So my day sucked. My dad was like, "Tomorrow will be better." I'm not entirely sure I believe that. But oh well. Maybe it will be better. Maybe tomorrow it will feel like I'm not such a screwed up loser that nobody cares about...
TGIF. FOR REAL.
It's finally Friday. Praise Jesus. This was a really long week, and I don't really know why. Monday and Tuesday were half-days at school, and then I worked Tuesday night and Wednesday was youth group and then Thursday was work and parent visitation [so I got to be stuck in a small dance studio with 13 kids and their parents] so that was interesting.
My cousin's here for the weekened, so that's pretty good. This is the same cousin that comes up about every couple of weeks. Usually her boyfriend comes with her but he had to work [I was bummed, too. He's an anime fan so that two of us can be dorky together...]. But she's hear now, so that's really exciting. I love having her here, it's really great.
I'm doing a full-on college search now. The college I wanted to go to was 21,000 dollars a year. NO LIE. It's because it was a private collge, and so now I'm looking at smaller public colleges. I'm taking the SATs in June, so I'm going to be applying this summer for early acceptance. I want to get applications sent out before I start my senior year. I'm a planner, so I like things to be set in stone. That also means I stress myself out so much...but oh well.
Ok, well, I'm going to go now, we've got steaks cooking so we're going to eat soon.
Happy St. Patrick's Day.
Not that I celebrate St. Patty's Day. Whatever.
The elementry, middle and schoolers as well as the 9th grade all are taking standardized tests this week, but us lucky saps who took the PSATs don't have to take them, so that means I've gotten to stay home for half a day these last two days. Even though I've gotten to sleep in, I feel like I'm about to pass out. I have no idea why. I'm so tired. It sucks. I can barely breathe, too, which really sucks. We did Pilates in ballet class last night and I'm not used to it so my stomach/side muscles hurt so bad it's painful to breathe.
And I just found out I have to go into work tonight. So I get to sit in the office at the dance studio for 4 hours this afternoon! Yippee. The last time I worked I just sat there and answered the phone twice and got chewed out by somebody's grandmother because I didn't know how to take tuition money. So she yelled at me. I was a little pissed, to say the least. Oh well. It's the most boring job on the face of the planet, the only plus side is I get paid...not much, mind you. I think I actually get paid less than minimum wage. So it's not like this job is going to really pay for college...so whatever. Stupid 5 bucks and hour.
Anyways, I should probably go do my chemisty before I have to go into school for the afternoon. I totally don't feel like doing chemistry. It makes me feel like an imbecile. [frowns]
Wedding Preparations.
So, I'm getting ready to go to the wedding. I have to be to the church by 2 because I'm manning the guestbook. Our human video team is all doing random jobs for the wedding [it's our adult leaders who are getting married, so it makes sense] So my sister is doing programs and I'm doing guestbook. Then all of us are going to take part in the beginning of the ceremony because they're having a purity commitment thing, so we're all going to walk in with two flowers to signify that we're going to wait for our wedding days. So that's going to be cool.
I'm being really girly and I'm excited about seeing everyone else's dresses. I've seen the bridesmaid's dresses, but I have yet to see the bride's and my friends that are also doing programs and guestbook and stuff all keep talking about our dresses, so I'm excited to see everyone. It's not very often that we can get all dolled up. [smiles]
...It's like 12:45, maybe I should go get dressed and do my make-up and hair...I need to leave in like an hour....
