"You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts." --2 Corinthians 3:3
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I'll be over here, in the emo corner.
I've been in a really depressed mood for some reason. I really don't know what it is. I'm just really getting sick and tired of people in general. I'm about this close to snapping. I'm dead serious, if I gone down, I'm talking the people who make fun of me with me. It's getting really annoying to hear how short I am. Yes I know already, you don't have to point it out. Or to have to sit around and compare myself to all the skinny-mini girls I dance with. So what if I'm bigger than they all are. At least I'm not flat as a pancake. They don't have to ostrisize me for my beliefs either. Yeah, I'm a Christian and I don't believe in being so slutty around guys that it's disgusting. I don't want to hear from people that's it's not normal to be sixteen and have never been kissed, let alone had a boyfriend. Do they really think that's my fault? I can't do anything to change it! What am I supposed to do? Dress like a whore to impress people that won't really matter in the long run? I don't think so. It's just so frustrating when people look at me like I'm so different. Yeah, I am different. Yeah, my people-skills suck, and I don't get along very well with anyone. Yeah, I stick out from the crowd--but that doesn't mean I'm a bad persn. Who cares? Seriously. I just want everyone to leave me alone, and stop fake-smiling at me, because that's the polite thing to do.
School and other sucky subjects.
So, I've been negligent in my duties of relaying my life to all of my internet friends. Sorry. I've just had 'one of those weeks'. I mean, school has completely just sucked the life right out of me. So, I guess I'll go and recap all the days that I didn't blog this week.
Sunday: Got back really late from the rally I went to. The leading band was really awesome. I got to stand right in the front, right smack in front of the really hot lead singer. XD Anyways, it was really awesome. Had a good time. Went to church and then human video practice. Nothing really eventful there.
Monday: School. Sucks. I went to dance class for the first time. Unfortunately because my knee is still made of FAIL I couldn't dance, so me and another girl [who had a cold] sat out and made flippant comments about all the crappy dancers who for the heck of it got promoted to the highest level of dance offered at the studio. [We have Minis, Juniors and Seniors which are all the levels, minis are little kids who have potential, juniors is the next level up, and I'm in the seniors class. Unfortunately we now have some 12 year olds stuck in that class with us, because...well, I actually have no idea why the crap our teacher promoted them when they completely suck...]
Tuesday: Talked in English about the interview we have to do. I hate interviewing people. I had to do it in Journalism a couple of years back and I hated it then. Of course, I never have time to do anything, so I've procrastinated on it. My school had a volleyball game Tuesday night as well. We won! It was so awesome. We totally stomped the other school. The girls on the other team screamed really loud every single time my school's team would return their serves. It was so obnoxious. High-pitched squalling in southern accents. NOT. GOOD.
Wednesday: Still realizing I need to get my sorry butt in gear and figure out who the heck I'm going to interview for English 111. The church my school's affiliated with had some program that I helped out with last night. It was fun. It was a whole bunch of strong guys breaking things, what's not fun about that? Anyways, so I got to be a greater and an alter-worker. Greating was kind of interesting because some of the skater kids from my youth group were hitting on me. I was a little wierded out... I was just up in the sanctuary's balcony saying hello to people when the skater kid was just like, "Hey, do you know my friend [he points to the kid I don't know next to him], do you want to come sit with him?" I was like, "No, sorry I have to go sit down there and work." Skater: "Oh, c'mon, you don't have to just come sit with us." Then he did that weird little head nod thing and raised his eyebrows like with this look like, 'c'mon babe, sit with us' and I almost started laughing but I just said no and walked away. It creeped me out. Me and my girlfriends giggled about it later. Poor guy. Rejection. Oh well. Anyways, so we got home around 9 and watched Project Runway. [I'm addicted, what can I say?] So I squealed like a schoolgirl when last year's winner, Christian, came in and was talking to the designers from thsi year. [laughs]
Ok. So yeah, that's been my week thus far. Haven't really had much time to do anything. I have to go to my final physical therapy appointment tonight, and then go to work. And then depending on how I feel afterwards [and how much homework I have] I might go and help out with the church event again. [sighs] I still need to interview somebody and then write an essay about them, and it's due tomorrow...and I still have no idea who the heck I'm going to interview. I was going to interview one of my coworkers who's on the rescue squad, but I don't know if we'll have time to talk before we have to teach our class. -__-;; I fail at this. If I can't interview her, I have no idea who I'll interview. And I need to do it before tonight. My brain's just died and I can't think. It seriously sucks, too, because all the really interesting people to interview are taken. Bah. I guess I'll just have to pull something out. Make it happen. If all else fails I guess I'll just interview my mom or something.
Fun-ness.
I'm going to a back to school rally tonight!! I just found out I'm going. Ha. It's at one of the local high schools and it's for Christian students, so that's really awesome. There are bands and speakers and stuff, so that's really cool. Falling Up was there last year [unfotunately last year I didn't get invited. I just wasn't that cool. :(] So I don't think any really big-name bands are going this year, but still it'll be fun. I'm excited.
Rantage.
Just finihsed watching Le Chevalier D'Eon. I cried at the end. I'm such a baby. Oh my gosh when Anna died I was just sobbing. I mean seriously the scene where D'eon came back and was all "I'm back, I'm back. Anna, I'm back." I was just bawling. I keep going back and rewatching just that part because it's so sappy, and romatic, and just slightly morbid. I mean, what the heck. Seriously. This is me, watching that scene:
Anyways, I seriously liked the anime. Definately want to buy it. Got to check out Amazon to see if I can find it cheap. I was thinking that the series was going to be a little wierd, because seriously it's about a guy whose sister's soul resides [and takes over] his body. So, I was like, "ok...creeepy" but really, it's fairly tasteful [if you turn a blind eye on Lorenza, that is] so I was really appeased by it. Maxamillion Robespierre makes me swoon. [laughing] I mean, seriously. Wow. Just wow. Ha. I'm such a fangirl. D'eon had his moments of fangirly goodness, too, I'll have to say. Robin was cute. I wanted to shoot Tellagory at the end, I mean, c'mon man!! What the heck?! Really? But he kind of redeemed himself by saving Robin. I won't even mention how pissed I was went Durand kicked the bucket, so to speak.
I want to cosplay for this series. Wouldn't that be seriously fun? It would be a lot of hard work [considering, knowing me, I'd want to hand-stitch everything for authenticity] but it would be fun. If I had a boyfriend [what a laughable concept] I'd make him cosplay as D'eon and I'd go as Anna, just so we could be all cutesy like that. XD I just love the period clothing. It's so pretty. [sighs] The inner girly-girl in me is coming out. I blame it on the [slight] romance in the series. Anna!!! WHY?!?! [sob]
Ok, I'm done ranting.
If I die, make sure they play disco music at my funeral
Anyways. So, I seriously haven't posted in a while. And, it's not because my life has been as boring as watching paint dry--on the contrary life's rather interesting right now; but, I'm just a lazy bum [as we all already know, of course] so I haven't been writing about it. In my own defense I caught a cold earlier this week, and was just like completely blah for a couple of days. I still kind of feel blah...at least I'm not completely jittery from the cold medicine.
English is slowly but surely getting better. I'm still kind of stressed that it's a college course, and I did get into the college, by the way. But I got kind of lower scores than my friends. [I got quite a bit higher than the needed scores, but not as high as my classmates which led me to believe that I'm stupid.]
Anyways, I started work [again] tonight. I'm assisting a dance class this time. No more fitting little kids with smelly shoes!! Nope, I get to teach 6 and 7 year olds ballet!! Huzzah!! It's actually not that bad. There are 13 kids in the class, so it's kind of crazy when they put their tap shoes on for the tap portion of the class [I suck at tap, but it's a two-in-one class, so I have to help anyways] but oh well...
