This post will be me randomly posting things at different times up until midnight. So, I'm going to be looking back on the past year...I'll begin now.
9:48--Well, I guess I graze over stuff that happened today. I was feeling a little bit better. Which was really good. We were still getting ready for the festival tomorrow in art class, so when I was done with the banner I was making, I played checkers with Muffin and my sister and one of the 7/8 graders. I beat them all. It was funny; 'cause Muffin was overconfident because I told him it'd been ages since I'd played checkers [which it had] but, my strategy held fast so I beat him. I beat him bad too. It was fun.
10:12--Dang, time is moving slowly. Anyways-as I said I'm going to take this time to look back on my past year. This paragraph will deal with my art. My art style has evolved so much over the past year. I've made a diagram.
As we can see: art back in the summer of '07 wasn't my best. But, I've gotten better at it. Oh, by the way the picture on the right is a picture I did for myself for an event...I liked how it came out.
10:43--Ok, this is the biggy with my life in the past year: the spiritual aspect of it. Before this time last year I'd just joined the human video team at my youth group. I got into some bad stuff [not anything illegal, mind you; but, sin is sin.] So it took a while for me to realize that God was still with me. It's been kind of a tough year with me working out a lot of things between myself and God. I became a student leader in my youth group. It's a pretty prestigious position. I'm basically a staff member now--so that's really awesome. I just really felt like God was steering me in the right direction. I'm still really praying that He lays out my future so I can see it, as I'm trying to decide on colleges and things that will affect the rest of my life. But, recently I've been having really great God experiences. I know a lot of people wouldn't like to read stuff about God. Boo-hoo. I'm sorry that I've offended you then; but, when God's doing such great stuff in my life it's really hard to contain. And just this past week I've realized just how much God loves me and wants me to be happy. My eyes have really been opened to a lot of things; and, I'm just waiting with baited breath for the next great thing God is going to show me. Every time I sit down to do my devotions at night I can barely contain my excitment when I realize that God's going to be talking to me. Just me. That's how much He loves me. And, it's like I told a friend of mine--you really realize that you're special to Him when you're sobbing and begging him for answers and a calm washes over you and you hear something in your head telling you the answers. Telling you everything is going to be ok. It's terrifying and exhilarating when God speaks to you directly. And then, when He begins to use you to speak to other people. I'm just really excited to see what He has for me in the future. I'm praying that I'll have faith in Him no matter where He leads me.
11:20--It's nearly midnight! And I'm bored; but, I wanna stay up until then. Ok, so I guess one more 'looking-back-sappy-crap-thing' before midnight. I guess the other area I've matured in is my writing. Considering it was this year that I decided to take writing seriously. So I started over the summer writing the first draft of one of the stories that all my characters are in--it's currently in it's third revision. I also just recently started writing a manuscript for a book I hope to get published!! Yet again, this is a far-off dream. I'm mainly just praying that I get it done! A ton of people I know keep bugging me about writing more because they want to read it and I won't let people [well other than my sister, my dad, and toxictherapy] read it until it's done. So yeah. I'm just excited that people want to read it.
So, I bet you all are wondering why I'm counting down until midnight. [laughs] I've got another ten minutes, then I'll tell you.
Alrighty, you guys. It's May 3; and now I'm going to sign off for today with a parting message. Goodbye, my fifteenth year; and, hello, Sweet 16. [for those of you who are a bit slow, it's my birthday...]
