My Darkness is my own.
- Created By saint pirate
Time is long, Life is Short
Ok, so I can finally get this out and you may know what the hell is wrong with me today.
I had this friend in a state seemling so far away from me. I cared about him, even when I was pissed off at him, I still loved him.
Last night I snuck onto the website that we met at and regretted it instantly after I read the status message for his avatar
"R.I.P. Zarrel. He passed away on 3/4/10. Posted by his mother."
If anyone has ever loved someone, then they would know that feeling that I got when I read that. My heart shattered. I didn't want to believe it. I couldn't. He had just turned 24 on 2/10. I had wished him happy birthday and everything. I guess you could say, I loved him, but I could never say it because of a certain thing that happened between him, my parents, and me. Basically, we were to never talk again. (Are you happy now mother and father, you got your wish...)I desperatly tried, repeatedly, to find some way to not let our relationship end on that way.
Last night was the end of me caring about what my mother and father saying. Actually, mother wasn't even home...I could have beat my father's brains out. I was going insane. Nobody should ever have to experience what I felt last night.
Last night was the end of me.
.::I love you my cuddle monster::.
