♥ "To live is like love, all reason is against it, and all healthy instinct for it." ♥

♥ "Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within." ♥

♥ "Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship - never." ♥

♥ "For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." ♥

♥ "One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: That word is love." ♥

♥ "Of all the music that reached farthest into heaven, it is the beating of a loving heart." ♥

♥ "I've learned ... that no one is perfect until you fall in love with them." ♥

♥ "The love we give away is the only love we keep." ♥

♥ "No cord or cable can draw so forcibly, or bind so fast, as love can do with a single thread." ♥

♥ How many times do I have to tell you boy? I'm not going anywhere. ♥

Sunday

It's sunny out again today. And still windy. Today is Easter sunday. I know a lot of people aren't religious.... I'm not really myself personally. Though I do believe in God... and Jesus and such. I don't believe in a lot of things that Catholic priests say. Luckily, I'm switching over to protastant for now until I move out and I can be my own religion. The eastern bunny came this morning (not really, I know there's no such thing) and I got lots of candy and a thong and a nice shirt that's too big for me. The candy is great, the thong is comfortable, believe it or not and the shirt... which is too big... is neat.

"I love you." He said. His quiet little voice came over the phone.
"I love you too." I answered back. He was supposed to come over today... but he couldn't. His retard of a parent said no.... SO he was stuck at home eating shitty leftovers. While, myself, I get turkey breast, glazed ham, pot roast, delicious bread, asparagus, and mashed potatoes. Oh yeah and bundt cake for desert. Fabulous.
The line was quiet now, probably because I was busy typing and he was busy eating his shitty leftover easter sunday dinner. Poor thing, if only he could come here and eat. I was bored of silence. I couldn't just keep typing forever without some inspiration....
"Hey." I said.
"Hey." He said, in his cute little angel voice. "What's up honey?"
"Nothin." I said quickly and easily. "Whatchoo doin?" I said goofily.
"Nothin... Just chillin." His voice was plain.
"What do you want to talk about?" My voice was calm and yet somehwhat excited. I was thinking about dinner.
"What?" He asked, his voice sounded far away. A hint of confusion in his overall drab tone. He appearently didn't hear me.
"Nothing, don't worry about it." I said and began to type down the conversation.... I wondered what he was doing. And if he was mad at me. I could hear him moving around and breathing on the other line. Cute. I gave him a kiss. He kissed me back happily. So childlike and adorable. I heard another voice. His mom was talking to him now so, I stayed silent. I asked him what was up. Same reply.
"what did your mom want?" I asked.
"She wanted to know if I wanted more food...." I laughed at this. He sounded so... bored. I chuckled and typed.
"Well..." I began as I realized I was getting a good conversation. " What did you say?"
" I said, 'Yeah'..." I burst out laughing at that and shook my head.
"Wow...." The the real conversation began.
"I'm fat." He said softly. I smacked my head.
"Shut up. Your not fat."
"Yeah I am." he said confidently.
"No. Your not."
"Yeah I am." That stubborn son of a....
"YOUR NOT FAT. SHUT IT." I almost screamed at him. The phone went silent. "geez." Your ex-girlfriend was fat but your not... I thought to myself.
Suddenly I heard him say, "I want to be with you." Man, that boy knew exactly what to say. I think when I have to go and pray at dinner, I'm going to thank God for him.

Saturday

There's a lot of sun outside of the window. It's warm but there's a constant wind. The snow's almost gone too, spring is finally starting. A nice day so far. A sunny outlook is always good and the weather is definately helping it. Although high 70's or low 80's would be a better temperature and maybe a little less wind. The clouds in the sky are light and fluffy and they just seem to lazily float past the houses and trees.

The phone sits in fron of me on the desk, it was black and sleek like the darkness of night. (Not to sound emo or anything, I'm just describing it's appearence.) The small rectangular green hued screen reads: SP-phone 01-43-22. I've been talking for a while now... and the battery is low. Luckily the other phone is charging on the reciever. I hear his voice, like a angel's, on the other line. He's singing. I lean over and kiss him gently. Even though, he's not here. I tell him I love him and he takes a couple seconds to reply. His tone was bored and uninterested. It stung a little but it's okay. Then it was all silence.

I began to fiddle with my ear, which had been hurting the last few days. Me playing with it wasn't making it any better but, oh well, I couldn't help myself. I noticed an iTunes gift card for 25 dollars sitting underneath the computer screen. I had used it up already... and I only had 5 cents left.
"What are you doin?" I asked him quietly.
"Nothing..." He replied simply. "Just looking at guitars."
"Oh..." I said, my voice was quieter this time.
"But," He continued, "Everything I want is 30,000-" He paused quickly, then corrected himself ad continued. "I mean, 3,000 dollars. Sorry." I smiled lightly and tried to commit the converstion to memory.
"No, it's fine." I spoke as I typed. "It's no big deal." Little did he know he was inspiring a whole story. I leaned forward and gave him another quick kiss. His voice came from the phone again,
"I love you."