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Do we mean the things we do, do we do the things we mean?

21st Century Living

Its by Matthew Good.
I'm feeling angsty.

You know, today I was only asked one question and one question only.
Do you know what it was?
"Do you want that supersized?"
And come to think of it, I want the whole fuckin’ world supersized.

Supersized guns! Supersized planes!

Supersized satellites. Think about how many more channels you could get with supersized satellites.

Supersized sales. How do you supersize a sale? How about we supersize 3rd world debt relief?

Supersize love. Supersize honesty. Supersize government. Come to think of it, actually nah, lets not supersize the government.

I’d like to supersize death. Supersize death. I’d like a supersize of death with a Coke.

..yeah kinda like that, you know? Lets supersize this song! Really, that’s the goal isn’t it? If we can supersize the record and we’ll sell more records, get a supersized record. That is after all ambition.

Ambition. Ambition’s a tricky thing; it’s like riding a unicycle over dental floss tightrope over a wilderness of razor blades. Ambition can backfire. Ambition means more, ambition means faster, ambition means better. What if you can super... can you supersize ambition? Does that make you ambitious if you supersize ambition?
Around here, our ambition hurts more than it helps. Around here, ambition throws a non-perishable item in a donation bin at Christmas, then pats itself on the fucking back because it thinks it’s done something decent.
Yeah we’re supersizing ambition. Make no mistake about it.

Ambition will televise the revolution, and it’ll sell more fuckin’ commercial spots than the Superbowl, the Olympics, the World Series, and the tragedy de jour combined. We’re supersizing. We’re supersizing the record. Because we’re ambitious.

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I feel lik the whoole world is falling apart and its my responsibility to fix it, and I know I can't.
Why is it that the nicest people always face so much hardship? My friends are all the most beautiful people. They've all had hard lives. My one friend's mom is a heroine addict. Another one's dad is an alcohalic. Someone else's dad keeps having flashbacks to the time he served in the military. Another father almost died of a brain tumour and one did die, but from what, no one knows.
Is it because these people know hardship that they are so compassionate? Does one have to know pain to appreciate what they have?

And, excuse me for a moment, but who do I talk to when everyone I know has so much more to worry about? They all talk to me and when I need someone to talk I can't talk to my friends because they need me to be stable for them. Maybe thats not true, but its how I feel. They need an outlet, and I really want to help. But what if they're like me and if they know that I'm hurting, they won't tell me whats hurting them?

I'm really bad at asking for help, especially from people who have confided in me. I want to talk to someone, but usually I end up having rhetorical conversations with myself. I know what I want to say (or maybe I don't...), but I can't bring myself to say it.

Fall For Anything

I absolutely love this song. Its by Jeremy Fisher, small time Canadian artist from the east coast. My favourite parts are in bold :)

Is the world so big, it makes you feel small
Is the hole you dig, deep enough at all
The graveyard is full my grandma used to say
If you don't stand for something you will fall for anything

Is time worth saving in paper dollar bills
'Cause we always just done it don't mean we always will
Is it worth singing along if you have a song to sing
If you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything

Can one single person make a change if they try
It's true all the martyrs that ever lived already died
Is the road so long we're gonna have to drive
If you don't stand for something, you will fall too far behind

Is there meaning in all these words that we say
Is there reason for living life anyway
Is confusion a state like Iowa or Maine
If you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything

Are the waters so rough 'cause we tried to scrub them clean
Do we mean the things we do, do we do the things we mean
When a child is born, is it because she has sinned
If she tries to stand for something, will she take the fall for everything

When the day has come your shadow lost it's light
Will you see in the darkness who was wrong and who was right
Will the devil pay your tab and take you home with him
'Cause you either stand for something or you fall for anything

Quote

"You can really only love one thing, and you'd better fucking fail before you give up on your dream."
-Josh Alvernia

I feel terrible :(

I totally forgot that I asked Ian to call me. Then I checked my facebook and I realized that he sent me a message like an hour ago asking if he could call then, so I sent him a message and told him I forgot to check facebook and that Aaron was coming over so he said that we'd just talk over facebook after. I totally blew him off :'(
I can't believe I forgot. I've been feeling crappy the past couple of days and I had a bad day yesterday and today and hes been so nice and understanding and he tried everything to make my day brighter and I asked him to call me and I forgot :'(
I feel so terrible. Hes so wonderful and I just forgot.
And now I have to find a way to stop balling my eyes out before Aaron gets here.