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Thanks for stopping by,
Madison

Do we mean the things we do, do we do the things we mean?

Facebook Notes P:

I always feel silly puttng these on facebook, but TheO is like a safe place for me :)

Ten things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:

1. Thanks for sharing your secrets. In a way you've learned my lessons and made my mistakes for me.

2. I don't tihnk you're a failure. And I'd stll love you if you were.

3. Never doubt that you are loved, no matter what your father says or does.

4. Wouldn't it e cool if we had known each other since we were kids? Meh, you're still my best friend :)

5. Please flush. Its not that hard.

6. Lets take this one day at a time, you can't rucsh somethng this special.

7. You rock my socks right off :D

8. You're not really a fatty (obviously) but nothing is more fun than sayng that you are :D

9. You make my day, everyday :)

10. And fnally, I'd like to say that I hate you for everythng the world is worth and I hope you lve out the rest of your miserable life all by yourself.

Nine things about yourself:
1. I am making the world a better place, one cookie at a time.
2. I have more insde jokes than the english language has words.
3. I have tckets to see Joel Plaskett and the Bare Naked Ladies !! :D
4. My hair and makeup ony work when no ones around to see it P:
5. I have six or seven dfferent colours in my hair.
6. Nail polish never lasts more than two days without getting picked off.
7. My dream is to see The Producers on Broadway.
8. I have every official Matthew Good and Joel Plaskett realease.
9. I'm gonna do something amazing someday...

Seven ways to win your heart:
1. Be sincere
2. Take interest
3. Don't be coy, I move on pretty damn fast.
5. Have an opinion
6. Make me laugh without trying to
7. Tell me how you feel

Six things you do before you fall asleep:
1. Facebook :P
2. Make bed
3. Tie back hair
4. Wash face
5. Sing a song
6. Arrange pllows in fortress like structure

Five people you couldn't live without:
1. Mom
2. Dad
3. Alana
4. Aaron
5. ConnorAndQuentin (they are a collective unit P:)

Four things you're wearing right now:
1. Nana and Papas necklace
2. Booty slippers :D
3. Dean Lickyer sweater
4. Purple nailpolsh

Three songs that you listen to often:
1. Oh Ana - Mother Mother
2. Peace Among the Bones - Sean McCann
3. Come On Teacher - Joel Plaskett

Two things you want to do before you die:
1. Raise a family
2. Save a life

One confession:
1. I am so afraid of breaking hearts.

P: Oh, the hipocracy ...

Yeah so I'm a hypocrite P:
Can't be helped, I can't take it back.
So I've decided that I'm not going to ignore my feelings for Ian because I'm afraid. I told Ian that I think I love him too.

I was thinking about it and I realized that the reason I didn't want him to love me was because I didn't want to hurt him. Then I realized thats pretty much love is, isn't it? Its wanting to to be there for someone and protect them, even if its from yourself. I know we're young and I know we're not in love, but where we are now is special and comfortable and I know that right now, I don't want anyone else.

I know that 'right now' sounds shallow, but please hear me out. I believe that anyone can love as many people as many times as the fates allow, but we only get one chance at true love, that one person we spend our life with. Some people miss that chance, others ignore it, but everyone wants it.

P:

Thats my new version of :P cause I'm cool like that :D

Anyways.... I'm supposed to be studyng but I figured I could take a break because 'm one of the few people n my drama class who have actually learned their lines for the exam :D
Um, just so you know, my i button is knda wokny, so dont mnd the effed up words please :D

Today, I realzed that if I listen to my top 25 most played, I'll never get a song I don't like! Cheers Itunes, you're pretty damn smart. ;)

Goddamnit >.<

So, today Ian came over after school and we watched a movie, and about halfway through he says "I've got to talk to you later."
So I ask "About what?"
He says "You'll find out when I tell you ... "
So I left it at that. Then when he was leaving I asked him what he wanted to talk to me about. He kind of looks over at my brother and dad sitting in the other room and says that he'll just tell me on Monday.
Now, once again, I should have just left it at that, but curiousity is one of my more prominent traits. So he tells me that he's been thinking for a while and the more he thinks it the more he thinks its true and believes it. As he's talking, my mind freezes up because I know what he's going to say. Then he says it and I'm still a little frozen.
I tell him "I'm not ready to say 'I love you' yet."
He says its okay and he just wanted me to know.

I really don't want him to love me because I know I'll just end up hurting him and I REALLY don't want to. Thats what happenned to Billy and I. He was way too in love with me and I couldn't stand to be with him anymore and now he absolutely hates me.
Billy's facebook status today was "You took the breath right out of me, you left a hole where my heart should be. You gotta fight to make it through cause I will be the death of you."
I'm fucking scared now. I don't know what he's like anymore, and I really hope that wasn't directed at me. I took him off my facebook and msn ...

Fuck, what now?

Would you like some EPIC with that FAIL?

So, on Tuesday, Jan 5th, Ian gives me a big hugs and asks "Know what day it is today?"
To which I reply "Um ... Tuesday?"
To which he replies "Yeah ... Its also January fifth."
I am totally unaware. "That too."
"We've been together for a month now."
"... Oooooh."
*Kiss*
Generally it was an epic fail :P