So, today Ian came over after school and we watched a movie, and about halfway through he says "I've got to talk to you later."
So I ask "About what?"
He says "You'll find out when I tell you ... "
So I left it at that. Then when he was leaving I asked him what he wanted to talk to me about. He kind of looks over at my brother and dad sitting in the other room and says that he'll just tell me on Monday.
Now, once again, I should have just left it at that, but curiousity is one of my more prominent traits. So he tells me that he's been thinking for a while and the more he thinks it the more he thinks its true and believes it. As he's talking, my mind freezes up because I know what he's going to say. Then he says it and I'm still a little frozen.
I tell him "I'm not ready to say 'I love you' yet."
He says its okay and he just wanted me to know.

I really don't want him to love me because I know I'll just end up hurting him and I REALLY don't want to. Thats what happenned to Billy and I. He was way too in love with me and I couldn't stand to be with him anymore and now he absolutely hates me.
Billy's facebook status today was "You took the breath right out of me, you left a hole where my heart should be. You gotta fight to make it through cause I will be the death of you."
I'm fucking scared now. I don't know what he's like anymore, and I really hope that wasn't directed at me. I took him off my facebook and msn ...

Fuck, what now?