:/ I dont intend to make anyone depressed with this. I'm sorry if i do.

These past few months have been so rough on me. I know I dont have a lot of friends, but there are a few that I really wanna hold on to and don't want to leave in 3 months...

On to a different subject. We just started physical fitness in gym. I'm not gonna lie, it. sucks. Ya know how schools are supposed to make you feel better about yourselves? Well apparently schools like to suck the life out of kids now adays. I don't enjoy waking up every other morning treading having to go to gym. The gym teachers pick out those who are the perfect little fitness obsessed students and tell us we need to be like them. And then they pick out the ones who are a little "overweight" and tell us to get into shape. -_- i dont. like. it. I'm one of those ones who takes a few too many snacks. I think I'm a right weight for my age/height though. But apparently I just need to lose a few pounds. If you ask me, I feel like they're asking us to cut out food all together and do nothing but run on a treadmill for 7 days straight =_=;;

So I have low self esteem cuz I'm not "in the healthy zone". Damn teachers, even the health teacher dont help cuz my heartbeat is just a tad bit too high. D< its close enough to the freakin average!!!

I'm not sure if I really do have this, but I think I might suffer from depression. It just showed up after hearing the news of us moving to North Carolina... Sometimes I'll be home alone and just start crying because I'll feel lonely or I'll realize just how much time I have left with my friends. :( It's not a good feeling. For about a week a month ago it felt like I had a really heavy weight on my chest. It doesnt feel good.

well... im gonna stop making people sad. I just needed to get some stuff off my chest :)