It's been so long since this place was thriving with friendship and people. Bittersweet memories of sneaking onto the computer past bedtime during high school to escape to a realm where I felt welcomed. I could be anyone I wanted, and even just being myself, I found more comfort with friends hidden behind screens than I did being around people in real life. At the time, I had more friends online than I did at school.
Of course, I understand that we've all grown older. I'm now 3 years into college with an Associates Degree already under my belt. I'm going towards my Bachelor's and half a year+ into living on my own 6 hours away from home. I have a real relationship with the man of my dreams that will be celebrating 2 years next month (sadly no, he's not France </3 but this one is probably better <3). I've got friends all over the state because after moving away from my childhood home, I could start over and make friends who accepted me for just being me. And just so much more information in the middle that proves how much I've grown.
And if I've grown, everyone else has too and moved on to their own paths and dreams.
Of course, that doesn't mean I don't miss the friends I made on here. So many I wish I still talked to, stayed up for hours and hours on end with over the summer and during school nights. But those conversations... just one day stopped. Or they just never returned. And me being the person I am, I will admit, it always broke my heart. I still think about everyone I befriended here a lot and I wonder what they're doing. Even if I could have just one last conversation with them for closure, I think that would make me happy. But I've already accepted that sometimes people move on to bigger and better things. I just hope that they're doing well. And that they know I still care for them.
I don't know if I'll post here again. There's just so many memories that I mostly just keep logging on every few months to see if I've received a surprise message or notification. While some memories here have now faded, there's still so many more from years of escaping that will always be treasured. And I can always appreciate that I do have them. Because I believe I wouldn't be the person I am today.
I'm always on Facebook, if anyone is looking to relight a spark of friendship <3 And I frequent Skype every now and then, at least once a week. And if not, then that's okay.
I love you guys. Keep being the lovely people that I've known in my life.
You'll always be in my heart <3
[dreams grow with the person <3]
