White everything was white...Warm and comforting.....I was alone dressed in white...
Endless...
Endless white...
I had never felt so alone...I felt so far...so far away from home. I wanted to cry, but the tears would not come.
Suddenly!
A figure appeared ahead of me.
A man... He looked so familiar but yet I couldn’t place him. I went through the list of people I knew. None of them. Maybe someone I had run into before? I had no idea who he was but I felt as if we had been friends forever. I was scared of who he might really be. But yet I had this longing in my heart to run over to him, as if he were a long lost brother or something. Who was he? Why was I feeling this way?
I ran over to him and...I’m embarrassed to say...I hugged him. Well...more like I tackled him going into a hug...
He chuckled and wrapped his arms around me pulling me into a warm embrace.
“Rabbi...Teacher...” I called him the words escaping my lips.
“______,” He said smiling warmly at me as if He had known me all my life.
I remembered now who He was. Someone who promised to always be with me as long as I served Him. Jesus.
I pulled away from His embrace and looked up into His eyes.
“I’m dead aren’t I?” I said realization dawned on me.
He chuckled softly.
“My child, yes you have passed on from your life on Earth...but you are hardly dead.”
He held out his hand for mine and I took it.
“Come with me, _____.”
We started walking the scene turning into a beautiful garden. I looked at Him a little nervous to be walking with someone so great.
“Jesus...”I said.
“Yes, _____?”
“Do you love me as much as I love You?” I asked.
He stopped and looked at me with such warmth in His eyes.
“I love you more than you love me.” He said a twinkle in his eye,”I cherish
all of God’s children individually. Do you not remember the bible?”
I could feel myself blush a little as he teased me.
He led me around the garden and we talked for hours and hours. Time seemed to be still. We talked about my life and I asked him questions about everything. All the important questions like,
“Why is the sky blue?” and “Which really came first? The chicken or the egg?”
He took me all around the garden into a large house.
We laughed, we cried...I never experienced such joy before.
Suddenly we stopped in front of a pair of large doors.
“Are you ready?”Jesus asked me.
“For what?” I asked nervously.
I asked....even though deep down inside I knew all along what or who lied
behind those doors.
“To meet Father of course.” He said smiling at me again.
I gulped and felt myself shaking. Did I complete His will? Did I live a good life? Will I pass judgment?
“Don’t worry ____.” Jesus said smiling reassuringly at me, “I will remain at your side as I always have.”
I nodded.
Jesus opened the doors and took my hand once more.
A bright warm light washed over us.
A warm and kind familiar voice poured out of the room reaching my ears.
“Welcome home, ______.”
Yes. I was home.
