I fucking hate my life right now.
Okay, update time.
First off,
I practically love this guy named Nic (there's no "k" in his name) but problem is, he's gay.
So I got the wonderful idea to ask him if he was 100% sure he only liked guys.
He wouldn't answer until I told him why I wanted to know. So I said "Cause I like you and wondered if I could change your mind" and he said he was 98% sure he was gay, the other 2% was because he never dated a girl. So I said "Give it a try..?"
So he said yeah, and we were going out for oh, about 24 hours. -_-
he broke up with me before I even had a chance.
It sucks, I was so close to having him...
Second update, Reba.
Okay you all know I went out with Reba, right?
Well for a little bit after that she still acted like we were together (saying she loved me, cuddled, etc.) but then she'd go and talk about how much she loved Jenna (hers, and my ex) and one day I was sick of it. I didn't want to fight anymore, I didn't want to play that little game anymore. So I told her i was acting like a girlfriend and that, unless she changed her mind and wanted me, that I was going to just be a friend. So she tells Jenna that I was like fucking stocking her and that I wouldn't leave her alone, so then Jenna calls me and bitches me out. Then (and this is where it gets really fucked up) I talk to both Jenna and our friend Jenya and find out that Reba said:
"I only went out with her out of pity, she wouldn't stop texting me (SHE texted ME!), That I was like fucking stocking her, and (this is where it gets fucked) that we were "secretly dating" and that she broke up with me because I was being Obsessive."
WHAT. THE. FUCK.
So me Jenya, and Jenna all got together and compared our stories.
then we called Reba and asked which one was true.
She admitted that she lied a little but she didn't say what was the lies were.
Then when Jenna said "Remember the day you had me bitch out Willa? What part of what you told me was true?" And this is where I got hurt,
She said she didn't remember.
The day that she fucking hurt me the most,
and she doesn't remember.
Oh and another little fun fact:
Reba had Jenna tell me off because Reba knew I still liked Jenna. And she thought that Jenna liked me. So She thought that the act of getting Jenna to tell me off proved that Jenna no longer liked me (we all already knew that) and that if Jenna didn't like me then she would go out with Reba. (which doesn't make sense since Jenna has a serious relationship with her current girlfriend)
So then Reba hung up and she tried to text me,
but I got someone to tell her that she lost my friendship.
She fucking hurt me,
I'm never talking to her again.
lol, funny note:
Right after the phone call with Reba and the moment where I actually laughed out loud at the thought of Jenna still liking me, Jenna and I got all close again. Which equaled us having yet another "fling".
We kissed a few times and tickled each other and everything. I had no problems with it:
-I knew it was only until Jenna's girlfriend was in her sight again.
-It helped rub it in the face of my Ass-hole ex, Kyle. (since he was there and saw obvious flirting)
-It let me feel loved, even if it was fake.
anyways, thanks for reading the entire post (if you love me that much)
Questions~
1) What did you do this weekend?
2) Have I missed anything?
3) How is your health?
My Answers~
1) I went to denver on a trip with my marching band. We went to six flags and I went on all the roller coasters. ( I went on the "Mind eraser" 6 times! Look that shit up on youtube, it's great.)
2) Um, I wouldn't know, now would I?
3) It's...alright? I don't know, I kind got used to feeling like shit.
Okay, as some of you may know, I have a few mangas.
I kinda just ended them because I didn't know what else to write, or I didn't know what would happen next, or I just felt like I sucked at drawing and didn't want to hurt people's eyes anymore.
Well, here's the surprise,
I'm thinking about starting my manga :Why the fangirl crossed the road,
Again.
But!
I need ideas!!!!
so please, if you haven't already, check out what I already have there and send me ideas of what I could do next!
I'm like the least creative mind out there, so please send me ideas.
I also have two new drawings that I plan to upload soon. (I'm just very busy with homework and finals. I have a trip this weekend and the weekend after that, but I'll be more free when summer is here.)
I guess that's it,cya~
~Questions~
1) What do you think of my old mangas?
2) Have you ever heard of Emily the Strange?
3) How's school?
~My Answers~
1) I think some of them have good ideas, but horrible drawings.
2) I have, but I've never checked it out. Two of my favorite pieces of clothing are of Emily the Strange, but I've never seen what it is.
3) It's...weird? And Stressful.
girrrrr
Okay, I went to an Amusment park today with one of my classes and it was alright. Everyone was hyper on the way there but everyone slept on the way back XD
Our amusment park only has two roller coasters,
and The first ride we rode was the bigger one.
now, it didn't have any problems until our group got on.
we were just starting off when *skweek* we stop.
We were just a few feet from the chain that lifts you up the first hill. XD
Eventually the ride was started again.
It's funny, on the first drop (which was fucking huge) I put my hands up and I was sitting in the front!!!!
Anyways, when the ride is about ot stop there is a thing of breaks set up to slow you down, only problem is when we hit them, they completely stopped us and we got stuck again XD
So here we (three of my friends and I) laughing our asses off because of the adrenaline rush, and the ride is stopped for like 10 minutes. Eventually a lady walks on the little side trail near the rode's track and tells us that we'll be down in a few minutes.
just like she said the ride starts up again and then we get into the loading area and before we reach the little unloading area,
we stop again.
We seriously stopped inside the loading area, a few feet from the where we should have been.
The lady was all "It'll be a few more minutes guys"
Some of my friends were in the line to get on and I was like "Again, again!"
And then the carts started to move forward so that we could get off, but the break barely worked and we were about ot start the ride all over again.
It was funny cause the friend I was sitting with was like "NOOOO. NO MORE!"
XD
lol, but I had a lot of fun ^^
I'm just very tired from it.
Oh and I saw something like this on twili-chan's site and I wanted to do it also.
My weeks:
- Starting from Last week-
monday: Day right after date-gone-wrong with kyle.
tuesday: Break up with kyle, ask out Reba. Phone breaks
Wednesday: Reba breaks up with me
thursday: reba and I still talk, and she still acts lovey dubby.
Friday: Horrible week comes to an end
Saturday: Watch movie/hang out with Twili-chan and ethan. Get new phone.
Sunday: Text Reba non stop practially.
Monday: reba talks on and on about Jenna (remember that name? The girl that played me earlier in the year! And Reba's ex!) and then I give up on trying to be more than a friend to her and tell her this. I also told her a lot of my other feelings and I knew I was being pathedic, but then she gets Jenna to CALL ME and basically tell me that I was being pathedic too. in the end Reba and I both end up crying and forgive each other. I convince my mom that a hair cut would help boost my self esteem and I cut my hair really short in the back.
Tuesday: Amusment park and Reba babbaling on and on about Jenna...to Jenna's current girlfriend.
Questions~
1) How was your day?
2) What's with this new connection between theOtaku and myOtaku?
3) Do you like roller coasters?
My answers~
1) It was alright I guess, I did have a lot of fun.
2) no idea, it's weird though.
3) I WUV EM!!!
~Pic of the day~
My car broke down!
XD
Wow, this has not been my week,
First, My ex boy friend Kyle practically molests me.
Then the girl I practically am in love with (Reba) gets my hopes up and then breaks up with me,
Then my phone breaks,
Then my CAR breaks,
Then Kyle fucking spends the one class I have with him staring at me.
Then Reba sends me mixed messages, talking non stop about her ex and then writing "I love you" On all my shit.
Then I find out that I have so many absences that any one of my teachers could choose to fail me Purely because of them (even though I have A's)
Then, just to make my life extra great, I GET FUCKING PAIN-IN-THE-ASS STRESS HEADACHES!
Oh, and a double to the Headaches is the fact that they make me want to throw up, scream from pain, Feel like I'm having a panic attack every five minutes, yell at anyone who so much as whispers, crawl up in an corner and cry, don't go away when you take Migraine medicine, oh, and best of all, give me the of-so-fabulous chat with my mom about "Why in the world I could ever be stressed".
Ooooh and I haven't even began on the topic of my finals,
HA!
Yeah right, I'm sure THAT'LL go well.
Over all I'm fucking pissed and stressed out to no end.
At least I get a new Cell phone tomorrow and I might get a hair cut on Sun.
I guess that's it, thanks for putting up with my bitching, everyone.
~Questions~
1) How's your life?
2) What problems are you going through right now?
3) When do you get out of school?
~My answers~
1) JUST FUCKING GREAT, YOURS? (sarcasm)
2) I just listed them, I even left out a few so that this post wouldn't be too long -_-
3) The final date keeps changing, but it's somewhere between May 28th - June 2nd.
~Icon for the day~
The one person I really, really fucking liked, just dumped me because she "still has drama to fix between her ex's"
Damn it, I feel like an idiot and I feel really, really sad.
I hate my luck,
so, so much.
