I fucking hate my life right now.
Okay, update time.
First off,
I practically love this guy named Nic (there's no "k" in his name) but problem is, he's gay.
So I got the wonderful idea to ask him if he was 100% sure he only liked guys.
He wouldn't answer until I told him why I wanted to know. So I said "Cause I like you and wondered if I could change your mind" and he said he was 98% sure he was gay, the other 2% was because he never dated a girl. So I said "Give it a try..?"
So he said yeah, and we were going out for oh, about 24 hours. -_-
he broke up with me before I even had a chance.
It sucks, I was so close to having him...
Second update, Reba.
Okay you all know I went out with Reba, right?
Well for a little bit after that she still acted like we were together (saying she loved me, cuddled, etc.) but then she'd go and talk about how much she loved Jenna (hers, and my ex) and one day I was sick of it. I didn't want to fight anymore, I didn't want to play that little game anymore. So I told her i was acting like a girlfriend and that, unless she changed her mind and wanted me, that I was going to just be a friend. So she tells Jenna that I was like fucking stocking her and that I wouldn't leave her alone, so then Jenna calls me and bitches me out. Then (and this is where it gets really fucked up) I talk to both Jenna and our friend Jenya and find out that Reba said:
"I only went out with her out of pity, she wouldn't stop texting me (SHE texted ME!), That I was like fucking stocking her, and (this is where it gets fucked) that we were "secretly dating" and that she broke up with me because I was being Obsessive."
WHAT. THE. FUCK.
So me Jenya, and Jenna all got together and compared our stories.
then we called Reba and asked which one was true.
She admitted that she lied a little but she didn't say what was the lies were.
Then when Jenna said "Remember the day you had me bitch out Willa? What part of what you told me was true?" And this is where I got hurt,
She said she didn't remember.
The day that she fucking hurt me the most,
and she doesn't remember.
Oh and another little fun fact:
Reba had Jenna tell me off because Reba knew I still liked Jenna. And she thought that Jenna liked me. So She thought that the act of getting Jenna to tell me off proved that Jenna no longer liked me (we all already knew that) and that if Jenna didn't like me then she would go out with Reba. (which doesn't make sense since Jenna has a serious relationship with her current girlfriend)
So then Reba hung up and she tried to text me,
but I got someone to tell her that she lost my friendship.
She fucking hurt me,
I'm never talking to her again.
lol, funny note:
Right after the phone call with Reba and the moment where I actually laughed out loud at the thought of Jenna still liking me, Jenna and I got all close again. Which equaled us having yet another "fling".
We kissed a few times and tickled each other and everything. I had no problems with it:
-I knew it was only until Jenna's girlfriend was in her sight again.
-It helped rub it in the face of my Ass-hole ex, Kyle. (since he was there and saw obvious flirting)
-It let me feel loved, even if it was fake.
anyways, thanks for reading the entire post (if you love me that much)
Questions~
1) What did you do this weekend?
2) Have I missed anything?
3) How is your health?
My Answers~
1) I went to denver on a trip with my marching band. We went to six flags and I went on all the roller coasters. ( I went on the "Mind eraser" 6 times! Look that shit up on youtube, it's great.)
2) Um, I wouldn't know, now would I?
3) It's...alright? I don't know, I kind got used to feeling like shit.
