If you've noticed, I haven't been on that much in the past two days. Truth is, I've been really depressed. Here's why:
- My new job is stressing me out
- Confidence issues with EVERYTHING
- Facebook is made of evil
- This one guy I know won't leave me alone
- I don't think my parents approve of me
Last night, I was pushed to the brink because of a bunch of things my mom said to me. It took a long while for a few people to talk me down. I had many suggestions of what I should do to pull myself together, but I didn't feel like doing many of them. I listened to music the whole evening to calm me down, and I felt better. Still, I felt that I'd have a hard time going to sleep.
That's when I decided to finally read the Sailor Moon manga. I had owned the first volume for about 2.5 years, but never actually read it. Why was I holding off for so long? In all honesty, I'm not too sure. Maybe I was saving it for a time like this.
Anyway, after I finished the first volume, I fell asleep right away. I can't say that I dreamed a handsome prince or anything. In fact, I don't remember what I dreamed about. But I can say that I feel a little better. My eyes are still puffy though. And I'm kind of tired because despite falling asleep pretty quickly, I only got about five hours of it.
I realize that my World that was supposed to be for anime commentary has now turned into a personal blog thing.
I realize that a lot of the people that I subscribed to are no longer on theO. Most of those people are on the first page of my subscription list, thus making it a bit harder to access the more active members on the second page. So I'm going to do a little purge.
Don't worry; if you're reading this, you won't be un-subbed. I make a point to sub people that sub me, and I'm not going to go back on that (unless they're thieves).
I just wonder why I subbed so many people that don't sub me back. It makes me feel inadequate.
I've been exploring a number of different anime lately. Lately I've been juggling Fruits Basket, Escaflowne, and Yu Yu Hakusho. I thought I'd watch some older (I'm using that term to various degrees) series before I watch more recent ones. I decided to pick up some "loose ends" from my dub phase and my high school anime club days.
But I'm going to write a little more about why I'm watching Yu Yu Hakusho. I had started it in the middle when I watched it on Toonami. I had no idea what was going on, but I watched it anyway. It wasn't until a few years after that when I posted my story, Destination, on some site, and I got a review saying that the beginning was very similar to that of Yu Yu Hakusho. I hadn't even seen the beginning of the series at the time. When I finally watched the first few episodes, I freaked out a little because IT WAS JUST AS THAT REVIEWER SAID.
It's kind of scary how similarly Yu Yu Hakusho and my story start out. I assure you that they go in different directions after that. Still, I hope I don't get in trouble for copyright infringement or something.
I'm filled with a lot of inspiration right now, but I have no idea what to do with it. I know I have to work on my 4-koma panel, and it's already underway. I'm also trying to finish up some drawings that I started over a year ago, but I might not post them right away due to Survival Instincts spoilers.
Other than that, I don't know what to do. I'd do some art trades, but I'm going to have to start drawing prizes for the Challenge I'm hosting, since it's ending in two days. So I'll have to postpone trading.
I want to do something "big" with my art-- something more than fill a 9" x 12" piece of paper. I just have no idea what that would be. I'm almost afraid to think about it. I dream big, but when it comes time to do something, I don't know where to begin. I get intimidated by my ideas.
For example, I want to make this fan manga, but I don't know what to do first. Script? Concept sketches? How do I even do that stuff?
I also realize that when I try to get ideas out quickly and put them on paper, they look kind of bad. Like my ACen comic. Which I'm still struggling with. So if you're wondering why I churn out artwork so slowly, that's why. I really want to be quick and good like some of you. Heck, I just want to beat out those base-defacers that have been occupying the leader boards with their Mary Sue junk. Yeah, I keep saying "I want" but I never do anything about it. I don't even know what to do.
But enough ranting. I'm not in as much of a bad mood as that previous paragraph might make you think. I just want to learn to focus more. I have a lot of time on my hands, and I need to harness that. Either I'm bored although I have things to do, or inspired without ideas. I just don't want that inspiration to go to waste.
Edit: I'm going to refresh this once a day for the sake of exposure.
Edit Part Deux: I guess I didn't make good on the comment in my first edit. Oops.
This year's summer event will be somewhat of a combination of a few of the ideas that I previously presented. It shall be a 4-koma round robin.
Basically, the premise is simple. Each person does one panel of a 4-koma. There will be as many comics as there are participants, so everyone gets to start one. Anyone can participate, but if there are a lot of people who sign up, not everyone will be working on all the same comics.
I will be turning the 30DOA World into a home base for this activity, so all additional rules and announcements will be posted there.
Sign-ups begin NOW and will go through June 8. The event will start June 15. I haven't figured out whether each person should work on their panel for one or two weeks. Input would be appreciated.
Questions? Comments? Flamingos? Please leave them in the comment box. Except maybe the flamingos. They may not fit.
View more info at the 4-Koma Round Robin HQ.