I'm filled with a lot of inspiration right now, but I have no idea what to do with it. I know I have to work on my 4-koma panel, and it's already underway. I'm also trying to finish up some drawings that I started over a year ago, but I might not post them right away due to Survival Instincts spoilers.

Other than that, I don't know what to do. I'd do some art trades, but I'm going to have to start drawing prizes for the Challenge I'm hosting, since it's ending in two days. So I'll have to postpone trading.

I want to do something "big" with my art-- something more than fill a 9" x 12" piece of paper. I just have no idea what that would be. I'm almost afraid to think about it. I dream big, but when it comes time to do something, I don't know where to begin. I get intimidated by my ideas.

For example, I want to make this fan manga, but I don't know what to do first. Script? Concept sketches? How do I even do that stuff?

I also realize that when I try to get ideas out quickly and put them on paper, they look kind of bad. Like my ACen comic. Which I'm still struggling with. So if you're wondering why I churn out artwork so slowly, that's why. I really want to be quick and good like some of you. Heck, I just want to beat out those base-defacers that have been occupying the leader boards with their Mary Sue junk. Yeah, I keep saying "I want" but I never do anything about it. I don't even know what to do.

But enough ranting. I'm not in as much of a bad mood as that previous paragraph might make you think. I just want to learn to focus more. I have a lot of time on my hands, and I need to harness that. Either I'm bored although I have things to do, or inspired without ideas. I just don't want that inspiration to go to waste.