When I lay there at night,
I watch the white ceiling,
Slowly it is painted black,
The thoughts flood my mind again.
I close my eyes and I fall,
I fall into nothingness,
It is a peaceful place,
Until the thoughts flood my mind again.
I wake up to a white room,
The first few seconds I'm happy,
I am ignorant to everything,
But then the thoughts flood my mind again.
I go outside and drown,
I drown in the bright sunlight,
But the sunlight isn't good,
Because the thoughts have already flooded my mind.
My friends are right here,
But they couldn't be further away,
I look happy on the outside,
But the thoughts have already flooded my mind.
I don't like these thoughts,
But the thoughts like me,
I can't seek help,
Because I am weighed down by my flooded mind.
I have to act normally,
Otherwise people know something is wrong,
I am alone with my thoughts,
Because my thoughts have always flooded me.
The thoughts are a part of me,
I want them to go but,
but I need them to stay,
My thoughts will always flood me.
