Hey hey,
So a few things happened yesterday, but one is completely dominating my mind.
I had my annual Doctor's check-up yesterday, so the usual thing. I'm all healthy and good, so that's always fun.
I decided to tell her about my knee. It seems to be pretty much fine now (it's been about a month since I had the ski accident), and only hurts when I bend it completely, or kneel on it. Also, there IS still some swelling, and part of it is still numb, but I can walk and run and the like, so I figure I'm good.
Still, the one thing that's been kinda bothering me is that there feels like a slight...chip or ridge or something on my kneecap. It doesn't hurt really, but you can feel it when you run a finger over my kneecap, so I'm just like, :/
The main thing is that I don't want to end up in the situation where in a few years someone is like, "Yep, you should have done [this] when you hurt yourself...". My Doctor agreed, and she decided to send me out for some xrays. So I'm doing that tomorrow.
What's really had me more than a little freaked out though is what she said could be wrong with my knee. She does think that it's probably nothing, but since I'm so active, I really should get it checked. Because in the worst case scenario, what has happened is that I've fractured my kneecap longitudinally, and right now the two pieces are just being held together by my tendons and muscle. And that's why it hurts still when I bend my knee fully: I'm actually pulling the two pieces apart.
O_O
Yeah, so, now I'm like mildly freaking out. It's highly unlikely that that's what has happened, but if that is the case, I may need surgery, and they'll have to wire my kneecap together. In my head I'm just like, constantly repeating "Fuck fuck fuck my knee is gonna be broken and ruined for my life I'll never be able to play soccer or ski or do flips again FUUUUUUCK".
It IS unlikely that that's the problem, but my imagination is flipping out. Holy crap I'm actually really rather scared. Knee surgery fucking scares the hell out of me. Gaaaaah
So I'll find out tomorrow. o_o
Can't stop thinking about it,
- Kastom
