Hey...
There have only been a few times in my life that I've cried as much as I have tonight.
Now I suppose that this will come to a great shock to many of you, but I am actually a very sensitive guy. I just hide it for the most part, 'cause I don't find it fun. Either that or it's some kinda defense mechanism and so I laugh to cover myself up. Whatever the case, doesn't matter.
Basically, I'm a total sucker for a love story. Probably one of the biggest you'll ever find. That's all you need to know. It'll make sense it a sec.
So basically, I watched some more Gurren Lagann. I can only assume that those of you who have watched it know what I'm now talking about.
If you plan on watching it, then most of the rest of this post you should ignore. Though I still haven't decided whether or not I will advocate Gurren anymore; we'll have to see.
So, Kamina died. God, just typing it is making me teary eyed. Why? Because he was definitely one of my top favorite characters ever. Not just in Anime, but in anything I've ever read, watched, etc. He was just so awesome. Made me think of myself. That is to say, how I WANT to be. I see myself as him, just as a version that is less...charasmatic I'd say. I dunno, rambling here kinda. Basically, Kamina is how I've always imagined myself as being in a story or something. So seeing him die...it was just...weird. Even the way he went, I just felt a part of myself dieing. I barely even knew him, since he was in so few episodes, but at the same time I just feel like I know him so well.
Maybe I'm just being selfish here, but I don't give a fuck. Damn it...
But what is REALLY making me cry the most (and I definitely am at this very moment), is Yoko. She liked him, and now he's dead. It's just not fucking fair. I feel so unbelievably sorry for her. Like I said, I'm the biggest sucker for a love story you'll ever find. And this one being broken...it is just too sad.
It's just too fucking sad...
So you know what I did? As soon as that episode finished, I went and opened a random later episode (I think it was 26). I just didn't care. I HAD TO KNOW. I HAD TO KNOW IF HE WAS GOING TO COME BACK. Somehow, I just felt that he couldn't be dead. Not just because I missed him, but mainly because he HAD to come back for Yoko. It was just too sad otherwise.
I have no idea what I saw, but I definitely remember these things: Simon looking like Kamina, Kamina talking to Simon (Simon was little though...uuuuugggghh that does not bode well), and I didn't see Yoko. My hopes really weren't raise much, but the fact that I saw Kamina gave me a little bit of hope. And that is quite possibly the only thing that kept me from just going online and reading the story. I don't care, it's just to sad. I have to know what happens.
So, I just finished watching episode 11. So I gotta say that I do like Simon quite a bit more than I used to after this episode. He did some things that really raised my respect for him. The fact that he is keeping Kamina close to his heart...I'm so happy he said that.
But I swear, every time I even just SAW Yoko, I began to cry. And when Simon was making the statues...I began to cry again.
I don't care. It's who I am.
And when Kittan would say that he was the leader, or anyone one else would say anything like that...I just wanted to hurt them so much. How fucking dare they do that.
But Yoko...ugh...I just...it takes all I have to not cry when I think about her.
All I can say is that it had better get better. These past few episodes have been so predictable, stale, and just not as good. I'm sorry, but they just weren't. There wasn't enough drama about Kamina's death. And without Kamina, this show has very little going for it, other than Yoko.
And so I'm hoping. Hoping....
Anyways, take a good look at Kastom right now, this is one of the few times you'll ever see me like this.
Hope I didn't annoy/bore whoever the few are that actually read this,
- Kastom
P.S. I hate Nia. That may change, but right now, I don't give a fuck about her. She's a useless "cute" girl. Fuck her. Give me a Yoko anytime.
