I'm kind of tired of just not succeeding in Illustration. It's rather frustrating to keep getting the same grade on project after project, especially when I put so much more work into one or the other. I'm just...tired of being just sort of okay, not really all that great. I don't feel like I'm getting any better, or improving all that much.

It's really, really hard to be best friends and roommates with the most talented person in the class, and probably one of the most in the whole department. I am constantly comparing myself and it drives me nuts because of how much it brings me down. I need to remember the words of Tom Servo: "Don't compare yourself. It ain't healthy."

But even for the sake of myself, I'm slowly slipping into a panic and questioning if I will ever amount to anything. Quitting my job has also been making me worry more than anything else, and all of this has not been good on my brain.

And this is why I've been out of sorts. I'm almost done with this year, and I will be so happy when I get to be home for five weeks and not have to worry so much. Maybe I can get back on track.