I don't know why, but today, I just freakin' snapped.
Stress just seemed to be overblown. I couldn't get a grasp on it all. I was tired, afraid, angry, worried, and just...
Band today was a half-concert, half-marching affair. When it came time to switch, I swapped out my oboe for the bass drum...you know, like usual. Then I turned around and smacked my head on an open locker door.
And just lost it.
I wasn't crying at first, just breathing rapidly. Then I broke down. Missy and I had a therapy session after that [since she didn't have anything to do, being in colorguard]. Just...the two of us, talking in the band locker room.
After band, I got hugs. ._.;
I can't go to band rehearsal tonight. I just...can't go there. I don't think I could deal with it for more than five minutes.
