Everyday....I feel like I should just die. I don't really belong in this cruel world. Everyday I hope that something bad would happen to me so I can leave this place. I wish that no one would know about it. I wish that I could be in a place that I can be HAPPY all the time, somewhere that i can FIT IN....somewhere I would NEVER have to say THESE WORDS. Everyday I put a smile on my face just so no one would ask me too many questions....I would always laugh along with my friends. It would be strange for people to see me upset in school or anywhere else....but actually I've always been sad....or mad, even both at the same time. I don't think that other people should worry about me...so that's pretty much why I just smile. Even when people,including some of my friends, might see me upset...they would just ignore me.....or not care about me.
This is the reason why I joined this website, to express what I have to say into words instead of thinking about it to myself.I decided to let other people know....even my three close friends....Jane, Paulina ,and Tia. If you are reading this....please don't think bad about me...I WAS JUST BORN THIS WAY. This is my way of thinking, doing things, writing things.....I HATE MY LIFE. I STRONGLY DISLIKE SOME PEOPLE.....I LOVE MANY PEOPLE. BUT ! I do not like my life !!