I did something bad. Really bad.

Yesterday I was talking to my friend Alessandra and J-Boogie. Alessandra needed to borrow a dollar from somebody so she asked me but I had no money. Then J-Boogie says "Here Alessandra. Because I'm such a nice guy I'll give you a dollar." *hands her the dollar and makes a "haha I win" face at me* Then he says "Don't worry about paying me back." *wink* So I look at him and "Oh look at Mr. Rico Suave over here." Then I look at Alessandra and say "Don't take it. Knowing him he'll probably ask for a kiss." Then he pulls out another dollar and says "A dollar for kiss?! :D Okay!" Then he hands me a dollar and points to his cheeks. One kiss from me and another from Alessandra. I was not going to kiss him on the cheek or anywhere. I planned to move in close and then slap him in the face.

I move in and right before I get ready to slap him he moves his head back and who just happens to be on the other side? Her. And then....So I moved back real quick and was apologizing my ass off and J-Boogie is laughing his ass of saying "That was so worth two bucks! So worth it!" She's sitting there silently. "Oh my god!" is written all over her face. And I'm just scared.

Why is it bad? Because I am in a relationship with someone. Why am I scared? Because I don't want to lose them. But I want them to know what happened because I don't want to keep secrets. Cause they turn into lies and make everything complicated and so on. So I rather they know straight up when it happens and not days later. I realize it was an accident but still. It doest make it any better. I'm really sorry. Super sorry. But sorry isn't good enough and I'm like getting ready to accept the worst.