I just realized... the tags that we put on art pieces... they're no longer defaulted to lowercase! DD8> That's crazy!!! Now it's liek... the sky's the limit on tags! 8D (YOu guys probably think I'm weird for getting excited over that XD;)
Well, there's not much else I have to talk about here... =ouo;= I'm sleepy so I'm going back to bed XD Ja ne~
I want to reach out and hope that someone reaches back for me...
I've been feeling so lonely lately...
As I type this, I feel stupid and whiny, like I don't deserve to complain...
I always wonder if the one for me isn't close by... like reading this right now or right outside my window...
I wonder if the one is even human or if they wind up being mythological...
Or perhaps the one for me has passed on without my ever having met them...
I think that would be sad... The one someone is destined to be with already being gone and they'd never know it...
But then does that really make them the destined one...?
It's so stupid that so many of us have to go through so much pain over something that should be trivial...
It makes me angry when others treat it as it is trivial...
Emotional pain causes as much damage to the mind as physical pain, if not more... it has been proven...
I see things everywhere that make me ache inside wondering, "When is it my turn?"
I might be too picky sometimes, but don't I deserve more than settling for someone who can't spark that something in me...?
I feel that I would be cheating myself and whoever that unfortunate person would be out of something more...
Why are things like this so hard? How do other people find "the one?"
And do I even want to find "the one" at this point in my life...?
But I hate getting into a relationship lightly... I treat anytime I would want to be in a relationship as if I were going to be with them for a long, logn time...
But maybe that's where I'm at fault...? Should I just throw away my own feelings and jump into something for the sake of not being alone...?
I don't know how some people in the world can have so many relationships so easily... to me, they're such a precious, fragile thing...
I just hope that... before I lose my sanity or my heart, I find someone who makes me feel loved... as well as teaches me how to love just as much.
That's right~!~! I am now officially an alumni~ Had the Commencement ceremony yesterday evening at the plaza (which I'd never actually been inside before). I was nervous and stuff, but once I'd walked across the stage, it was fast. The wait was long, because my school type (technology) were the last ones to go. I had to see my guy friend and he acted the same as usual. Even offered to carry me up the stairs because I had on cork heels. I bluntly refused. I can walk on my own, and I don't feel comfortable being carried up stairs... I feel like I'll fall. I have issues about falling down stairs... =>_>;= Also, it just bugs me because that's just how he is... Like if he ever did something to you and you were to call him on it he'll say "Aw, it's okay..." WTH?! D=> Why say "it's okay" when you're the one who's done something?! What the heck kinda sense does that make? It's that kinda behavior, though, that makes it impossible to hate him. =>3>;= Stupid guy. I don't think he could ever have a single enemy. But if he does, I would not allow anyone to lay a hand on a single hair on him! DX< I guess that's just the kind of person I am... mothering sort of. Although I think I'd be a terrible actual mother... Fuu... I care too much, somtimes...
... What was I saying? Oh right, I graduated XD; I really went off on a tangent, there... Yeah, my family got me a card and a shiny new artfolio for interviews~ =3 And my aunt got me one of those cards where you go online and get the softward, hold it up to the webcam and it plays an animation! =D It's so awesome! (Do you know what we can do with that technology?! Well, I don't either atm, but I'm sure it has potential X3) Also, my mom and I had a standing agreement that I would not drink alcohol until after I graduated. So, last night she personally gave me a Sangria Mist (Sangria mixed with Sierra Mist). It tasted pretty good. I was out like a light this morning, tho... I had such a hard time getting up and my arms were like noodles. I managed to stay up for a while once I regained functions, but I went down for a nap and was snozzing again X3 Now I can say I have the ability to drink alcohol, though it's not something I need to do. I appreciate the fact that mom would oversee my first drink, because I had no idea what kind of reaction I would have and if it were a bad one, I wouldn't want to be out and about D=> So maybe every once in a while for celebrations, I could have a little somethin'. I'd like to try a strawberry daiquiri, tho~ (Kids, I don't condone underage drinking *wags finger* I'm 23, so I'm well over the legal age.)
I had on the prettiest dress yesterday. It might've been nice to hear someone say I was beautiful =;3;= But I know I looked nice. Also, I had on the gown for a good portion of the night XD It's tough being around someone you wish would acknowledge you in the way you would like, but you know never will... It sucks. And now I probably won't really be able to see him as often. Maybe at a few get-togethers. Until I manage to get that car, my range is still somewhat limited. I feel bad when people have to tote me around, I feel like such a burden. And I can't use my mom's car all the time. In the meantime, my brothers' truck isnt' being used and they encourage me to use it so it doesn't get stagnant, but once they get their licenses, then I'm probably back in the same situation. I would probably only use their truck to get back and forth to work, once I get a job.
In the meantime, I'm going to be working on finishing up my senior project for the contest. Man, I'm going to miss going to college. Not that I'll miss the homework, tho XD But we all have to move on sometime... *feels like she wants to cry* I'm out now... ja ne =;.;=
Well, I finally saw what I got for my classes...
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Just because I felt like randomly doing something on Muro to stretch the art muscles.
Here, look if you want.
The right eye seems off, but meh *shrugs* I can't access the Wacom plug-in anymore... I think it was moved. So no pen pressure, sadly.
