Just very tired. Felt a little bad on Wednesday so I stayed home... Still had a slight temp, even though it went down today. Went to classes and was very drained, but managed to make it through. Crashed when I got home and woke up at midnight... yikes...
Dunno... Guess I shall take this rare chance to play a video game.
If you haven't already noticed (which, if I've been chattin with you, you already have XD), comments are back! Yaaaay~ *attempts to flail, but is too tired* ... =~v~;=
Anywho, yay~ And I'm feeling better from before. One of my guy friends IM'd me to see what was wrong and he wound up getting an earful of emo chatter =>v<;;= Lololol But I felt better, also, I found a hack for WMP 12 so I could use the mini player feature again. God bless the hackers XD I kinda wish I was a hacker myself so I could help someone, but I'd need to be SUPER smart for that, and frankly, I don't want to deal with all the math and algorithms involved to hack something XD;; Though if I get reincarnated, I hope I'm a smexy hacker =eue= Lol XD
Also, trying to catch up on homework and whatnot =~u~= My guy friend admitted something I was pretty much aware of. He said "I had a thing for you a few months back..." although at that time, I was hesitating because I'd been holding out for another guy, plus a friend of mine was saying he's just a player and had flirted with her. I think she was half joking. I've known him since high school (then again, there was another guy I knew since high school and things turned out somewhat unfavorably then... urgh, don't want to think about it too much...), so he seems harmless enough to a degree... Although I don't hang with him much so *shrugs* I hate thinking about things too much. I said we would hang out and whatnot, since we'd been out of touch for a bit. It's weird to think about it, since I did have a small crush on him back in high school, but he didn't really seem interested... now it's feels like the situation's flipped... I feel like a jerk, but I can't liike every guy that likes me... well that also sounded really jerkish... Why can't you please everyone? ;orz
... I lost my train of thought... I hate it, but I feel somewhat romantically numb atm... Or perhaps that's just feeling relaxed from last night's bath? I would like to take things as they come, but I want to punch myself for the way my mind works... I seem to like guys that don't like me, or in some way it wouldn't work out, and I can't usually seem to like guys that like me... or... I don't know... ;orz I forgot how I phrased it, but someone's always getting hurt, isn't it? ;;OTZ I hope I figure out some kind of solution soon... Or at least feel secure with the way things are... Or rather... I dunno... One of the main reasons I'm even going through all this is because I keep thinking about one guy in particular, but I don't think he sees me in the same way, or even if he does, it would probably be better if we stayed friends because he's a good guy I'd like to keep around for a while and I feel that it'd be almost certain our friendship would be ruined if we went out or something...
I... lack confidence in myself... I can't seem to think of why people like me... I'm not trying to put myself down when I say this, but... I'm honestly confused... Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I was rejected from a circle of girls in kindergarten because I thought they were forming a circle of girl's wearing "Barney" shoes when they actually said "Barbie" shoes and the main girl told me to get out of the circle... *sigh* Perhaps I feel and enhanced sense of rejection or something. Perhaps I feel as though I never belonged in the first place... *rubs chin* Hm... It's my last year of college, so perhaps I should join a club... Although I'm a bit lazy, but if I want something, I have to make the effort if I feel it's worth it...
Lol XD And all that after saying I as feeling better XD;; This is what happens when I type my train of thought... XD;;; Oh well *shrugs* I'll just see how things go. =P Ja mata, minna-san =^_^=
To reply to all those comments right now... orz It's been a long day...
Trying to make sure my Microsoft Word was properly working... Trying to log onto the wireless network at school, but still having issues... Trying to do some of my Japanese workbook, especially since I missed the last class... Finding out this guy I've been flirting with is engaged... ;;OTZ That really depressed me...
I'm glad it's the weekend. If I can manage to get motivated, I might be able to catch myself up on my homework... I don't feel pressured yet... Probably because I haven't really ascertained how much needs to be done... Or maybe I just don't care. I know I don't care right now, since I'm tired.
Fortunately, most of my problems were solved throughout the day... Once I'm caught up, I might feel like I can breathe a bit easier... *sigh* I hate thinking about romance, sometimes... but I do love the angst in stories... XD; I'll feel more like I have genki once I've gotten a full night's sleep. One step at a time... Though I'm frustrated about my romantic situation... *sigh* I wouldn't say I'm in a state of "OMG I'm so emo, the world is ending!" ... More like, "Crap, this really sucks... =o_o;=" and maybe a little overly dramatic sobbing XD
I can't even think straight right now... Things are just bleh X3;; I think I'll head to bed early tonight and just take a breather. *nods* Ja... Mata ne *slumps to bed*
Well, I've read that the issue with comments is only in Internet Explorer... so in the meantime, I'll use Firefox to comment XD
It also seems I've worked out most of the kinks with Alkaine =D Hoorah! It was frustrating since one of my Adobe products said that it expired =/ But I fixed that. And I had to get Microsoft Office 2007 on Alkaine, but I thought I'd be fine since it was already installed on the computer, but it was just a trial version! D= So i was going through a whole bunch of stuff when I realized... my brothers just bought a copy from the campus bookstore, so I could use that one XD; All's well that end's well X3;; And I couldn't connect to the school wireless network, so I took it to the second floor of the computer lab where they help you with that stuff, since I figured it was something really simple. And it was... I forgot to deselect one of the check-boxes XD;; So all's well that end's well. Now I feel like I can catch up with stuff... yay <3
So after I get back from classes, I'll be going around replying to comments and such that have backed up XD; If I forget someone, I'm sorry, it's gone on for quite a while... =>.>;= Ja ne~
My new partner, Alkaine, came in the mail today! He's got orange highlights~ He's very sexy and smart and modern and sharply dressed. And he's so BIG! I worry that my legs might go numb while I'm working with him...
Hm? What's that you say? Mail-order husband? NO! XD Alkaine's my new laptop! XD Lololol I feel bad because I'll no longer be working with Lappy =TT.TT= I love/d Lappy as he was my first orz *sobs* But I needed a partner with power, so I ordered Alkaine... Yay~ I want to draw his gijinka form when I get a chance X3
As for the comment issue, still no change. I sent a pm to Bossman, but no response. However, Shayde-kun sent a pm to SomeGuy and he said he'd get the issue to the higher ups =^_^= Thanks for being proactive, Shayde-kun~ So I hope that the issue will be fixed soon =3
Well, I'm off for now. Mata ne~
