I want to reach out and hope that someone reaches back for me...
I've been feeling so lonely lately...
As I type this, I feel stupid and whiny, like I don't deserve to complain...
I always wonder if the one for me isn't close by... like reading this right now or right outside my window...
I wonder if the one is even human or if they wind up being mythological...
Or perhaps the one for me has passed on without my ever having met them...
I think that would be sad... The one someone is destined to be with already being gone and they'd never know it...
But then does that really make them the destined one...?
It's so stupid that so many of us have to go through so much pain over something that should be trivial...
It makes me angry when others treat it as it is trivial...
Emotional pain causes as much damage to the mind as physical pain, if not more... it has been proven...
I see things everywhere that make me ache inside wondering, "When is it my turn?"
I might be too picky sometimes, but don't I deserve more than settling for someone who can't spark that something in me...?
I feel that I would be cheating myself and whoever that unfortunate person would be out of something more...
Why are things like this so hard? How do other people find "the one?"
And do I even want to find "the one" at this point in my life...?
But I hate getting into a relationship lightly... I treat anytime I would want to be in a relationship as if I were going to be with them for a long, logn time...
But maybe that's where I'm at fault...? Should I just throw away my own feelings and jump into something for the sake of not being alone...?
I don't know how some people in the world can have so many relationships so easily... to me, they're such a precious, fragile thing...
I just hope that... before I lose my sanity or my heart, I find someone who makes me feel loved... as well as teaches me how to love just as much.
