I think that there's a higher chance that my family will lose our house... No one in our home has a job now and everyone's stressed... I really wish I could find something I can do online to make money so I'll still be around to help out... I'm so stressed and I'm internally freaking out... My mom's upset and my brothers are looking down on me... I've never had a job in my life and everything's that's happened since I'd gotten out of high school has made it all but impossible to get one... I am slipping into depression and I feel like I don't have anyone who has any answers... But I don't even know if I'm aksing the right questions... I just... I don't know what to do. The way things are going, it looks like I'll have to support this household. If that happens, I'll never be able to go live on my own. I'm angry because I feel a good chunk of my "good years" were wasted. And I'm sad to see what this situation is doing to our family... I don't even know where we'd go if we couldn't live here, but I don't want to lose this house. We've lived here all my life almost. And the main thing that makes it the hardest for us is taking care of our father/mom's husband... Every one of our lives has to revolve around him... *sighs*

I just... I feel lower than I ever have right now...