Well all my tests (blood and ultrasounds) came back negative, fortunately. The only thing she could really think that was the problem was maybe gas, so I got stuff for that. And she said the other pains might be caused by stress, so she gave me anti-depressants.

And I found out that my boyfriend had a girlfriend. And it wasn't me. Good thing I got those anti-depressants, then =/ I've never been cheated on before... And I'd never thought it would happen. I'm not 100% certain it's the truth, but my mother and my brother who went to a party he was at told me the party was for his girlfriend and he was over there all the time. It's so stupid. I never thought he'd do it. Well, no, the thought's crossed my mind several times. And he was always kinda suspicious... Like he wouldn't be able to make it to things and it seemed like I always had to go to his place and all he'd want to do is get frisky just about. I mean, he'd recently started talking about how I was marriage material, but it was also in the same call he said we should start over fresh as friends and spend more time together. When I called him out on it, all he really said was "I'm going to talk to you when you're calmer." This is so stupid. Who even deserves this kind of thing. I hope someone tells this girl he's been with so she can decide whether or not to beat the crap out of him.

I just feel like the biggest idiot in the world. And what if I were to find out someone was spreading a lie and he was telling me the truth the whole time? But his behavior over our entire relationship has been weird and a lot of moments would make sense if he'd had another girl. It's just... I don't even... I don't know what to do... The only thing I can do is work on the show and stuff... But for now, I have to go do dishes...