My heart beat rapidly, eyes fixed to the television, tears streamed silently down my face. A 'strange' death had just been aired, for some reason it forced me to remember things that, in this crime cursed world, seemed like they belonged in some movie about a utopia. I could only bring myself to think of one cause for this, lord KIRA.
Realizing that I'd dropped all of my stuff on the floor I scrambled to stick my camera back in the case before Hikari got pissed and said I was a slob, again. “I'm going out Hikari!”, I called, not wanting her to worry as she often did. As I reached for the door knob I relaxed my face and let a maniac smile take over my face, the same smile I'd worn every day when lord KIRA was passing judgment. As I walked out of the apartment I could no longer hold it back I cocked my head back and stared happily at the sky and said, “So it begins again,” then continued on my way to work.
Later that day, on my way home, I felt the need to stop off in a local cafe to wind down, maybe I just wasn't ready to go home to my ex, such a strange relationship. I pulled a thick volume out of my bag and set myself to reading until the sun began to set. That was the plan at least. I didn't notice when a friend of mine plopped down in the chair across from me, eyes wide in fear. “Ren...,” he stuttered, his chocolate brown hair seemed greasy, like he couldn't calm down enough for a shower this morning. I didn't bother to look up from my book as I answered, “Is there something I can do for you, Hanabusa?,
He shook his head. “How can you be so calm?,” I felt I knew what he talking about, he'd asked me the same question when the lord KIRA passed judgment on my father, I supposed it wouldn't be to off base to give him the same answer. “All. Hail. KIRA.,” I said, cold, emotionless, exactly same, but a smile still struggled to spread across my face.
I suppose I frightened Hanabusa, because he decided that he would have no more to do with me, a change I hadn't expected. Change, I could see it happening everywhere. I'd done my best to remain the same when lord KIRA apparently disappeared, when the crime started, when my sister was taken from me, I tried, but now that the biggest change was coming, well, coming back, I figured I should change now. I wouldn't stand idly by and play a nameless cheerleader, this time, I decided to HELP KIRA, I would find someone to directly aid my idol! I had to! This world had become poisoned! We all know that that sometimes it becomes necessary to cut off a limb before it can infect the whole with its poison, and what is the world but a many legged beast? I would help to amputate as many of these corrosive appendages as possible, even if it cost me my life. Lord KIRA would have no reason to leave this world again, I would make sure of that. The smile emerged, wider than before, I must have looked like a lunatic. I liked it.
So many things in this world work just by sheer chance, once I accepted that I realized I'd found the perfect way to contact lord KIRA! I took a napkin from the table I sat at and the pen from my pocket and quickly scribbled down a message.
My lord,
I am but your humble follower, but I wish to aid you in any way possible. I realize your need for secrecy so I'll try to do this as best as I can. If this note somehow has reached you, my name is Ren, I want to help you bring down the hammer of god. I understand that your followers have a high mortality rate...I accept that as my fate, I understand that this is my death warrant, but still I plead with you.
~HAGAREN
I tucked the note into my pocket and headed home, tossing it to the wind as I walked. I hoped that it reached Lord KIRA. I hoped that this person would accept my, understand the clue to my name. Maybe I shouldn't have tried to be so clever. Steel...was that to be my alias?
