Konichiwa Mina-san!!

The name's Andy and welcome to my world ^^
I'll be posting a few thing now and then so feel free to drop by and check it out

woohoo

oh yeah!!!! 5 more days left before i head down to south africa to visit my friends and party with them
sadly i would be out of internet reach for about a week or two. XD lol tho some would miss me while im gone hahaha

dot dot dot

so yeah im not in the best of moods these days, for some reason im in a pissed of mood today and feel like playing some FPS games to vent out my frustrations.
seems lately there's been so many bad news for me and all that sigh >_>
and i feel like im just being a nuisance to others, wonder if they'd be happier if i wasnt around anymore >_>

and yeah i checked my mail today and was surprised that the taiwanese army wants to recruit me into the army, coz i answered a few survey type questions and it seems like they were interested in me and wanted me to sign up for the army's intelligence section. Tho i have no interest whatsoever in joining the army so yeah, besides im overseas, not like they can make me join.

so yeah im gona go smash my xbox against the wall and such coz im irritated atm and need to break something, but no worries i have another xbox so i can smash the old one haha

the feeling of being ignored..... :/

yeah as the title suggests, im kinda feeling ignored and such, which makes me feel lonely, it kinda reminds me of the days when i was still a lil kid, ppl ignore me coz im taiwanese or asian for those who cant differentiate. so yeah lately ppl have been ignoring me, and the feeling of a black hole swallowing me is returning, wonder if i'll lose everyone i know once again, feeling alone isnt all that great either. its not like i try to get ppls attention and all that, but sometimes i would appreciate it if ppl actually took the time to talk to me. tho most just judge me by my skin color and never took the time to talk and get to know me. most ppl would be like "oh he's asian, he probably owns a china shop and cant speak proper english' well fuck you then!!! not all asians own a china shop and not all asians are from china, and for your information i can speak proper english and i probably scored a higher grade than you did. sometimes these ppl really piss me off with their stereotypes >_>

and yeah being ignored by strangers isnt that bad when ur being ignored by your friends even tho you have no idea what you did wrong even tho you try your best to find out what happened and such. sometimes i dont know why i bother, maybe because the person i talked and knew before had something that makes me want to stay with them. tho i know most of them dont even appreciate my friendship.

sigh well thats how my life's been. hmmm kinda sad if you look at it.

hmmm dont know why this song, maybe coz thats how i feel atm i guess :/

updating my world

wow its been a long time since i last posted something in my world :O
hmmm lets see, well a lot has been happening in my life, problems with friends and such but nothing that cant be sorted. so in about 2-3 wks time i'll be heading down to South Africa to visit my friends since its been some time that i actually went down and partied with them and it would be good to see my friends as well even if 60% of them are emo types and 80% of my friends are girls, so yeah im looking forward to heading down and party with them.

Had a BBQ or braai as its called here, on saturday since it was my cousin's birthday, (even tho i was the one handling the meat on the grill etc etc) and thanx to that, my clothes all smelled like smoke and such, but it was ok i guess.

and in other news, im waiting for my acceptance letter from the university and in august i'll be leaving for university IF i get accepted, and im planning on going to Australia nxt yr during my holidays, visit a few friends there and see the places. hope things go well for me.

a monkey stole my underwear and he shall steal yours too

hmmm guess its one of those times where im depressed :/
but yeah recently my depression has been getting worse, i feel like im unwanted and betrayed by my friends etc etc
anyways here's song that i was listening to while being in this state.